About a year ago I stopped writing my blog because after 11 years of blogging I felt it was time. My husband had suggested to me that I use my blogs to write a book. During the pandemic I did just that and wrote a book called “Obsessed with God”.  I wrote a 2nd book from my blogs called” A Layman’s View on The Holiness of God”. Both books are available on Amazon. I hope you will consider purchasing them.

I was going to write my 3rd and final book called “It Is well with My Soul”. It will be a book on suffering. But before I could start it, I had a huge medical crisis. What you may or may not know about me is I have several medical illnesses that have affected my life greatly. I’ve been able to manage to live my life anyway, but in the past few years it has become much more difficult.

These are rare illnesses that there is little help and no treatment for. In June of this year all medical hell broke out in my life. I had 2 hospital admissions for 1 week each, 3 ER visits and 2 ambulance rides. These events left me weak, extremely fearful and not able to think clearly. I suffered a stroke and some epileptic activity.

All the extreme suffering shook me up and tested my faith down to the core of my soul! Because of this the enemy of our soul used this opportunity to try to pull me away from God but my soul is anchored in my Lord Jesus Christ, and He did not let me succumb to that when I could barely think clearly. The word of God says this:

Romans 8:35  Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Right now, I am as stable as possible, but I know this can change at the drop of a dime. I am learning in real time what it means to really trust God no matter what my situation is. When I write my next book “It Is well with My Soul” I can tell you there will be things in it about going through dark times and surviving spiritually, emotionally and physically. It will have what others can do for us at that time. It will also include when God seems silent in our extreme distress.

I thought I had been through enough to write this book but what I have just been through and what I’m facing needs to be written. What I do want you to know is that I’m still obsessed with God, I still love Him so. I may not fully understand my suffering, but I’ve learned a lot about myself, my family and those who said they were my friends. Many were there for me! I learned what I need from others. I learned that my thoughts and information about heaven were needed and comforting. I learned to minister and sing through my pain and tears.

I am like a little child depending on my Father God to carry me through the rest of my life! None of us knows when a disaster might hit us. I pray not! But if it does like it happened to me, I tell you…we might loose our grip and feel like we are free falling, but deep in my heart I found security knowing that my name is written in the Lambs book of life and that God is the keeper of my soul. My job is to REMAIN FAITHFUL….no matter what happens to me!

I want to thank my husband because I had gotten so sick that I couldn’t pray. My husband was constantly praying over me for weeks!!! I thank God for a godly man!!!!!

My story is still not over. I know I have more to share about God’s grace and mercy in my future. Right now, I’m grateful for these few moments I have to share with you.

Suffering is a mystery and so is God’s grace, healings and miracles. I’m a living witness of those things! Through it all I can still say…God is great Father! When I eventually get to heaven and I’m able to get full clarity about all that I’ve gone through, I will be happy to know the refining process I went through was needed to make me be all that God intended for me to be. Thank you for listening! God bless and keep you all!