I AM SO STUPID!

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This is what I used to say about myself when I was a young child. I felt like I was not only stupid but ugly and lazy. I believed these lies that the devil put in my young mind. How did it get there? Well…I did very poorly in school. The teachers used to say to my parents…”Tanya is smart but she’s just lazy.” When I did my school work I didn’t understand the work. I could not comprehend reading and forget about math… D’s and F’s were my standard grades. By the 4th grade they were going to leave me back, but my parents begged them not to. I struggled and got bad grades all the way to high school but managed to graduate….thank God!

Not!

By the time I was 12 or 13 years old I was thinking of suicide and attempted one time and thought of it every day. In my mind I felt that I was a mistake and that God let babies be born without limbs so I must have been born without brains. I thought I was ugly because of my front teeth and mouth. Every time I looked in the mirror I thought I looked like a monster…deformed. I was told I looked like a monkey. I was always very tired my whole life and never cleaned my room…just so lazy. I had very few friends and I’m sure if the word geek or dweeb was used back then…I would have been one. I wanted somebody…anybody to accept me for me…but why would they…I’m stupid I thought… a mistake.

When I married my husband James I used to tell him that I was stupid. He would get so angry and would ALWAYS tell me how smart I was.   He has been so instrumental in helping me realize that… God made me special!

The year 1984 was a big year for me. It was the year that I learned that I was not stupid…it was the year I committed myself to the Lord….It was the year that God made me over. The first thing God told me was… when I hated the way I looked…that I was hating what He made. He said He doesn’t look at people that way. He said our spiritman is beautiful and He see’s that and He see’s our heart. He doesn’t judge us by our outer appearance. He told me to love myself…Even though I was overweight…He said for me to love every inch of myself.

Over the years I have figured out that I have a learning disability and that’s why I did poorly in school. I also have a rare medical disorder that has caused me to suffer with chronic fatigue and health issue my whole life and this is the reason for the tiredness…not laziness.

I FINALLY FIGURED OUT THAT…I AM NOT STUPID AND I AM NOT A MISTAKE!!!!!! God gave me my life and God gave me a beautiful soul. He created me from His heart. How can I tell Him that He made a bad thing…I can’t. When God told me to love myself because He made me special…it took me some time to process this information. With His help I began to see myself through His eyes. I felt better about myself. The Lord has used my husband to help me over the years to keep up this positive attitude. The enemy’s deceptions can easily creep back in so I have to constantly abide in God and His word which shields me from the lies.

About my blog…it’s a real live miracle!!! I had zero skills for writing anything at all. I hate to read and I get confused when trying to do internet stuff…but I’ve been able to figure how to do my blog all by myself….my kids and husband didn’t even have to help me. I’m so amazed!!! It’s a miracle!! My husband is so amazed because He knows it’s a miracle. Can you all see what God is doing in my life? Do you want to know why? I’ll tell you anyway (smile)….I want to tell others about the many lessons I have learned in my years of learning at the feet of Jesus. I’ve been through so much and the Lord has given me so many victories. I also pray a lot and want to write messages when God gives me an inspiration to share.

Look what God can do through the life of a little girl who though she was stupid. I never was stupid…I was always what God destined me to be. I’m God’s child and He created me to give Him praise. So today I give Him all the praise for what He’s done in my life. He took a woman who didn’t know the first thing about writing and gave her the ability to take words and form them into sentences and then paragraphs and then into a…blog. God spoke-I Listened!

Dear God,

Thank you so much for straightening out my mind and taking away the negative thoughts that tried erase away your plans for my life. Thank you for not letting me destroy my own life. Thank you for blessing me with new abilities that I didn’t think I was capable of achieving. Please continue to work in my life and use me. Please let what I have been through encourage someone else who might have those same destructive thoughts. Let people see that you can make a big change in people’s lives if they commit themselves to you and that anything is possible with you in our lives. Thank you for creating me. I love you.

Your daughter the writer

Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Message for today: Never believe the devils lies!!!

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3 Things every Christian should know

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Three things you should know about yourself

3 Things every Christian should know

1. I should know who I am
2. I should know whose I am
3. I should know where I’m going

1.) I am 59 years old and I know who I am. My name is Tanya Nemley and I am the wife of an ordained minister and the mother of 6 wonderful adult children and a grandmother to one precious granddaughter. I am a soloist in my church and I have an active prayer ministry. I am gifted to do many crafts and I love to cook and bake. I am a passionate barbecuer. I am a born again Christian. I am an encourager. I am a chronic illness survivor and a breast cancer survivor. I am a blogger. I am happy and I am blessed by God. I know who I am!

Who...Whose...Where

Psalms 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

John 1:12 Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God

John 14:2 In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you.

2.) I am a child of God. God became my Father in 1965 and became number one in my life in 1984 when I became committed to Him. I am adopted into His Holy Family. I am Jesus sister. I am filled with the Holy Spirit. I am in the book of life. I am sanctified. I know whose I am!

3.) I know I am going to have an abundant life here on earth. I know I am going to be the salt of the earth. I know I’m going to endure all the trials that come my way. I know I’m going to spread the gospel. I know Jesus has prepared a place for me to go to after my mortal body ceases to exist. I know I’m going to live eternally with God in heaven. I know I’m going to have a glorified body that no longer will I be susceptible to pain and suffering. I know I’m going to be OK…because….I am so blessed! I know where I’m going!

Knowing these 3 things enables me to have daily hope and peace. I feel happy, peaceful, protected, secure, loved, nurtured, joyful……I feel like singing…..I feel like praising and worshipping the Lord…..I feel like getting on my face before the Lord and humbling myself before His Holiness….I feel like saying….Thank you Lord for the hope that I have and all you’ve done for me Lord.

Hey...Check this out. It's got great news for you!

If you are reading this blog and you don’t know these 3 things about yourself….then I must tell you some good news…You can find all these things out in a very old book that was prepared for you by the creator. God has prepared everything you will ever need to know for knowing these 3 things and more. It will guide you and give you a new life. You will feel so freed up. Many people have poo pooed this book saying it’s not true or they have changed some of the stuff in it….but I want to tell you to read the book exactly like it is written and hide the words in your heart. Your life will never be the same. It is the living book of God and He speaks to us and guides us through every page in it. And after all these thousands of years…this book is still a best seller. The bible is #1 and will always be so.

Romans 8:16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.

To all those who already know the 3 things…..Child…you betta kno’ you blessed. Ya’ll go ahead with ya’ blessed selves and bless someone else so they can no bout’ Jesus!!!   See that’s the way my great Grand Ma would have said it!

Message for today: There are some things you just have to know about yourself….Do ya’?

I know who I am

20 things I would have done if I were God

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I'm wonderfully made

1. I wouldn’t have added that pinky toe…ouch!
2. I would have left out this sinus thing…somebody get me a tissue.
3. I would have made food leave the stomach faster so no overweight…my BMI is what????
4. I would have made the teeth out of titanium…..Root canals hurt like mad!
5. I would have left out the ear wax….anybody got a coupon for Q-tips?
6. I would have made humans bald…….many of us are anyways LOL!
7. I would have made nails out of hard bone…..my nails are so brittle.
8. I would never let there be dandruff…..my clothes….the embarrassment of it all.
9. I wouldn’t let poop stink…..close that door!!!
10. I would have let babies come from eggs like chickens……Oh man… labor hurts soooo bad!!
11. I would have added a 3rd arm……it’s so hard to scratch my own back.
12. I would have made huge feet….to carry all this weight!
13. I would have left out the tonsils, and spleen, appendix ….who needs those anyway?
14. I would have required only 2 hours of sleep necessary….I’ve got too much to do and so little time.
15. I would not have a thing called mucus ….I think candy secretions would be yummy!
16. I would never let estrogen run low…..can we say….…no more hot flashes!
17. I would bump up the immune system……no more colds…ever!
18. I would skip the teen years all together…….ah!….the peace.
19. I would make a woman’s bladder much bigger…..can you point me to the nearest ladies room?
20. I would make every human the same color…..so much drama…so much drama.

I really hope God is laughing at me for what I’ve written in my blog today….if not I’m in big trouble.You know God don’t play!!!

God originally made these bodies perfect and because of the fruit and tree incident some problems set in. We must endure though… because we who have made Jesus #1 in our lives will have a heavenly makeover and will be blessed with a perfect gloried body. I can’t wait!!!  (Well maybe just a little!)

Psalms 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Message for today: It’s a good thing I’m not God because I would surely mess things up. God know best!

Amen!

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