God Speaks I Listen

While there is no cause given for Mandisa’s death many knew she suffered from depression. I would like to honor her by taking a few minutes to advocate for something she was passionate about. Mandisa was very public with her struggle which is not easy to admit to the whole world. Many people these days are turning to suicide to relieve their emotional pain. Suicide is also popular with our youth. It’s very difficult to know who is suffering in this way because many people hide their true emotions. They may even put on a happy face to their friends and family.

Suicide to me means that a person has lost all hope and feels totally alone in their heart and mind. There is a saying, “tell me how you really feel!” I wish people suffering like this could.

So, what can we do? Praying about suicide is our best solution. We also need to educate ourselves on signs to watch out for. If you’re a mom or dad pry quietly into your kid’s life as best as you can. For friends ask questions if they seem a little stressed. We should keep a watchful eye on our Christian brothers and sisters, especially those in any type of ministry. But sometimes people are very secretive and there are just no clues at all.

If you are feeling this way yourself, please, please, please, please, please, please find help! I know what I’m talking about.  Many years ago, I had to fight for my mental health. I did get the victory, thank God! Taking your own life is never the answer. When you are in this state of mind it is very hard to advocate for yourself. This is why you need help from an outside source. Take advantage of this free resource: Suicide and Crisis Lifeline; Just Dial 988 on your phone. On line the do have a chat. Hang in there! People do care about you!

Today a total eclipse occurred. So many people agreed that sharing this experience with others even strangers was spectacular. What is spectacular is that Jesus Christ visited earth to give all humans a chance to go to heaven to be with God which is the most spectacular event ever. People believed today that this eclipse was going to happen and that it would be amazing. And it was.

 Genesis 1:1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

But who made the sun, the moon, and the planets. We even got to see two of the planets today in addition to seeing the sun and moon. Who made all these spectacular creations? God!!!!

Did He get much acknowledgment about His handiwork today? Maybe not too much but I’m going to give Him some praise in my blog today. God You are an amazing universe designer! Thank you for this planet, for sustaining it and for creating humanity! To God be all the glory!

Isaiah 43:2 When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.

Over the years I have written several blogs after a mass killing and other disasters. Unfortunately, things have not changed, and they won’t either. Why? The first reason for which I’ve stated in previous blogs is because all these things was predicted in the bible! The second reason why is people who are not Christians, saved, and born again are going to do what the devil tells them to. The bible states this very clearly. So then, this IS our new normal!

Is it difficult to live in this world today? Definitely YES! Should I be scared? Not really scared but more like concerned. We should be wise and careful. There is a lot of surveillance equipment and alarms that we can purchase. We can be cautious when we are out and about. We can have extra food, supplies and batteries in case of a storm or natural disaster.

Our greatest peace though will come only from Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. If we don’t have them in our lives, we will not survive this world’s very stressful situations. We MUST continue to live trusting fully in God’s protection. Even if something does happen, even if we get a bad report from the doctor, even if we lose our job or our home…. GOD WILL BE THERE! Even if we lose our life…. we will be in the presense of God. So, what does this all mean?

Today in 2024 we need Jesus so much more!

My new daily routine…In the morning as soon as I open my eyes…I give God praise. I tell Him how much I love Him. I ask Him to help me through my day. Sometimes I ask for specific prayer requests. At the end of the day, I thank Him for all He did for me.

My health has been EXTREMLY CHALLENGING! I use to sing “Precious Lord take my hand.” Not anymore! I sing precious Lord take my hold body and carry me around! I can’t even breath without God! I can’t walk, talk or think right without God! I need God like a baby needs its mother to survive!!!

People….we can’t live our life without Gods strength anymore!!!! Fear not and hang in there!!!

I leave you with one of the most encouraging scriptures:

Psalms 23:4  Even when walking through the dark valley of death I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me, guarding, guiding all the way.

Before I Die!

I want to tell you something very important that you may not know that happens in the moments when you feel like you’re going to die. This has happened to me twice in my 71 years of life. The first thing that came into my mind and out of my mouth was….” God, Please forgive me for any sins that I have committed”.

I was not expecting to say that. It was an instant instinct. I wanted my soul to be clean before I saw God. Although I knew that I have been ready to meet God for a very long time, I wanted to make sure my soul was clean.

I mentioned this to my mother-in-law who is home with the Lord now who also had near death experiences. She told me the exact same thing about asking God for forgiveness for any sins. In order to see God, we must be cleaned by the blood of the Lamb who is Jesus Christ. He is the only one who has the power to clean our soul spiritually so that we are holy enough to see God!

We should be living like any minute could be our last. We should be living a holy life because God commands us to. Any of us could die at anytime, anywhere, anyhow. I have been sick for a very long time. The thing that gives me so much peace is knowing that it is well with my soul, meaning that I’m good with God. Looking death in the face made me wanted to be sparkling clean AKA holy for my Father God!

Sometimes people have moments before death arrives and sometime death is instant with no chance to make a quick confession for repentance for my sin and ask for forgiveness. Please consider my story today. I write this because I know what happens to a person who haven’t ask for God’s forgiveness, believed and also asked Jesus to come into their lives. The Holy Spirit has been asking you and following you around for years so that you can live with God forever on the day your life has ended. Hell is real and you don’t want to wind up there!

Everybody can see that things on earth are escalating rapidly. I don’t want to list out all the catastrophes because you see it and are maybe experiencing it. Is it well with your soul? Are you clean inside your spirit to meet God? As it is said…. Are you prepared to meet your maker? This may sound like doom and gloom, but I tell you it is a joyous thing when you have complete peace about where your soul will be in eternity! I have that peace!

Hebrews 12:14 Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.

Matthew 5:8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

Romans 6:22 But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life.

(I haven’t been blogging much these days but when I feel the importance of something I will)

For the past many years now humanity has been facing a variety of life’s obstacles. We must face the fact that evidence is showing us that this year will be no different. Even though the world seems to be going in different directions spiritually, morally and disaster wize , there is one thing that is very stable throughout all of life’s challenges.

Hebrews 13: 8 says “ Jesus Christ is the Same yesterday , today , and forever. “ Backed up by MALACHI 3: 6 that says “ For I am the LORD , I change not . God is still God and is sovereign over all things. It is not up to us to judge what He does or doesn’t do. He is far too superior for us to fathom His ways. For us, it matters about our soul! Who owns it and where it will wind up when all is said and done!

There is NOT going to be a big sweeping revival all over the land now. The bible explained very clearly what will happen in the last days. So, what should Christians do? First, love God like crazy, be holy and obey Him! This is our mandate from God. Second, if you are not a Christian and are not looking to be, please reconsider. Nobody is going to live forever on earth. After death you will live forever somewhere in a place that is great or in a place of eternal grief. You have time to investigate this now and come to a decision.

Going forward life is going to continue to be very challenging, but I know that God is telling me to be faithful or full of faith until the end. I am to stay focus on my purpose and God’s will for my life. I need to do what I can for the kingdom of God and to trust God for all my needs and support. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus. I will keep a balance by limiting looking at the news. I need to do something for others even if it just a phone call or making a meal to show Christ love. I need to let others see Jesus in my life and be a light in this world. I need to be ready at all times for the bridegroom’s appearance!!! I know my purpose for remaining here for 71 years now.

Father God, please show us all which way to go and show us your will for the rest of our time here on earth. For those who are struggling in some area of their life, please help and strengthen them. Have mercy on us Lord! I ask this in Jesus’ name…Amen. God bless you all in this New Year!!!

Mariah Carey made a #1 Christmas hit in 1994. This song with some of the words changed around would fit my spiritual life. Jesus’ name is already in the title!

All I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true (Some day! Heaven can wait a bit!)
All I want for Christmas is you… Jesus! (I’m Born again, Good 4 now!)

Ever since I turned 70 last year all I can think about is how much closer I am to seeing God! We here on earth are getting ready to celebrate Christmas. Although we don’t know the exact date it doesn’t matter to me because I’m just so grateful that Emanuel, Yeshua, The Son of God, Jesus came so I can have the assurance that I will be in Heaven one day. Christmas has a different meaning for me now.

When my husband and I raised our 6 kids we made sure they knew it was a Jesus birthday celebration. We read the Christmas story on Christmas Eve with them. We let them know it’s all about Jesus! Christmas day we had a cake and sang Happy Birthday to Him.

This Christmas as a senior citizen I have a whole new perspective about Christmas. Christmas represents the beginning promise of the Kingdom of God! It’s about a promise that was made that if I accepted this baby that grew into a man and sacrificed His own life for me that I’m promised a home in heaven when this earth suite I wear becomes unusable. As a senior citizen my main focus is to serve God and to share my faith with every bit of strenght I have left!!!

I’m so excited that I’m so much closer to this great new beginning for my soul. I’m waiting with GREAT expectation for that glorious and joyful day.

But while I wait, I will continue try to let people know about the true story of Jesus birth, death, and resurrection. I’m excitingly waiting for my turn to see God face to face. As Mariah’s song says, “I don’t want a lot for Christmas”. All I want is for others to repent, know and accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT FOR WHOMSOEVER!!!!

JOY TO THE WORLD THE LORD HAS COME!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 1:21 She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.

I wrote this message for a teaching that I gave recently. It has really helped me and I pray it gives you some comfort also.

October 17, 2023
My Little Children…I call you that because you are so dear to me! Everything that is going on around you has been prophesied by me and is written in my word. All world events, All human behavior events and all extreme weather and land events. There is not one thing that is happening that has escaped my eye.

Vision I got:

I see each one of us looking around at all the commotion and I see Jesus holding our hands and saying…”Look at me! Look at me!” “Keep your eyes on me!”

Do you know how powerful I am? Do you know how wise I am? Don’t you know how Holy I am? I’ve got this and I’ve got you! I’ve made provisions and promises about world events and about your lives before this world was ever made. My promises are true! My words are pure. If I said it, it will come to pass.

Keep focused on My plan and My will for your life. If you love me, obey my word. Your adversary wants to derail my plans for my creations, but I’ve given you all the help and support that you could possibly need! Don’t be pulled to the left or to the right. Don’t sink down in your spirit because of so much pressure.

Do not live in fear! Do not let fear become the daily abuser of your emotions and mental stability.
Nobody in the world or in this universe loves you as much as I do. Let my love be a healing balm for you that is constantly nourishing your soul.

My word reveals that the future for all of creation WILL be challenging, but you don’t have to worry about your future because it has already been decided and finished at Calvary. The fate of this world and your lives are sealed. The King of Kings and Lord of Lords will come back here to rule and to rein, and you will be with Him!

Meditate on this, keep it in your heart. Let your sleep be peaceful because of your knowledge of the grace that covers you. Wake up every morning with the assurance that you were bought for a price. You are protected and in my loving care.
From Your Father who art in heaven.

A lot is going on right now in our country. There are natural disasters, man caused disasters, wars and war threats, killings and illnesses and even a resurgence of tuberculous and leprosy. Covid is still here. Inflation is at an all-time high. Fentanyl use is off the chart. There are many unusual things happening also.

What are we to make of all of this?

2 Timothy 3:1 But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. But Jesus said: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

If you are feeling fearful or are going through an extreme trial right now there are 3 things that have been helping me. One is I keep my mind on Jesus Christ and the second thing is I remember that it IS well with my soul no matter what’s happening to me. The 3^rd thing is the grace of God is there for me! I hold on to these 3 things tightly. It may sound simple but it’s what can help. God has said not to lean on our understanding and that His ways are higher than ours. I can’t control what is going on around me. I am holding on to what I know the scriptures say about all of this. I need to trust God no matter what!

I know there are just some things that I will never understand about suffering, and I NEED TO BE OK WITH THAT! I am holding on to all the times God has helped me in the past during hard times. I’m singing the song “Precious Lord take my hand” and I’m reading the 23^rd Psalm a lot.

I know many of you are going through very hard times also and I’m so sorry for your pain. There is so much more I can say about this but, I pray these mere words can bring a little relief in these situations. Hang in there…..with Jesus. Don’t stop praying and asking God for help!

Psalms 23:4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Father God, We pray for all the extreme situations that are going on in people’s lives right now. Some are fearful, confused, depressed, distressed, brokenhearted, and downright discouraged. God, we cry out to you for help and strength. Comfort those who have lost so much especially their loved ones. Please hear our cries. Please help all who are in need. Thank you so much. In Jesus name we pray…Amen

About a year ago I stopped writing my blog because after 11 years of blogging I felt it was time. My husband had suggested to me that I use my blogs to write a book. During the pandemic I did just that and wrote a book called “Obsessed with God”.  I wrote a 2^nd book from my blogs called” A Layman’s View on The Holiness of God”. Both books are available on Amazon. I hope you will consider purchasing them.

I was going to write my 3^rd and final book called “It Is well with My Soul”. It will be a book on suffering. But before I could start it, I had a huge medical crisis. What you may or may not know about me is I have several medical illnesses that have affected my life greatly. I’ve been able to manage to live my life anyway, but in the past few years it has become much more difficult.

These are rare illnesses that there is little help and no treatment for. In June of this year all medical hell broke out in my life. I had 2 hospital admissions for 1 week each, 3 ER visits and 2 ambulance rides. These events left me weak, extremely fearful and not able to think clearly. I suffered a stroke and some epileptic activity.

All the extreme suffering shook me up and tested my faith down to the core of my soul! Because of this the enemy of our soul used this opportunity to try to pull me away from God but my soul is anchored in my Lord Jesus Christ, and He did not let me succumb to that when I could barely think clearly. The word of God says this:

Romans 8:35  Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Right now, I am as stable as possible, but I know this can change at the drop of a dime. I am learning in real time what it means to really trust God no matter what my situation is. When I write my next book “It Is well with My Soul” I can tell you there will be things in it about going through dark times and surviving spiritually, emotionally and physically. It will have what others can do for us at that time. It will also include when God seems silent in our extreme distress.

I thought I had been through enough to write this book but what I have just been through and what I’m facing needs to be written. What I do want you to know is that I’m still obsessed with God, I still love Him so. I may not fully understand my suffering, but I’ve learned a lot about myself, my family and those who said they were my friends. Many were there for me! I learned what I need from others. I learned that my thoughts and information about heaven were needed and comforting. I learned to minister and sing through my pain and tears.

I am like a little child depending on my Father God to carry me through the rest of my life! None of us knows when a disaster might hit us. I pray not! But if it does like it happened to me, I tell you…we might loose our grip and feel like we are free falling, but deep in my heart I found security knowing that my name is written in the Lambs book of life and that God is the keeper of my soul. My job is to REMAIN FAITHFUL….no matter what happens to me!

I want to thank my husband because I had gotten so sick that I couldn’t pray. My husband was constantly praying over me for weeks!!! I thank God for a godly man!!!!!

My story is still not over. I know I have more to share about God’s grace and mercy in my future. Right now, I’m grateful for these few moments I have to share with you.

Suffering is a mystery and so is God’s grace, healings and miracles. I’m a living witness of those things! Through it all I can still say…God is great Father! When I eventually get to heaven and I’m able to get full clarity about all that I’ve gone through, I will be happy to know the refining process I went through was needed to make me be all that God intended for me to be. Thank you for listening! God bless and keep you all!

I feel the need to go further into spiritual warfare, so this is Spiritual Warfare part 2. Spiritual warfare has escalated in our world and has greatly affected all of us. We MUST know what we are dealing with so that we can get through our situations and so we can also get the victory over our situations. This information is not to scare you but to alert you to the enemy’s tactics and lets you know how to deal with this. You can be an overcomer in your daily run ins with him and his minions.

Here is a straightforward biblical answer on who satan is.  John 8:44 You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.

People who are not Christians are at the devil’s mercy and control. The devil was bad from the beginning and is responsible for all lies. The lies are how he deceives people.

I want to tell you about my personal experiences with the devil and how God taught me how not to be afraid of him.

As a child, I was extremely afraid of scary movies. I don’t know why but I was. Movies like The Mummy, Frankenstein, Dracula etc. used to terrify me. I was very scared of the dark too. I never thought much about the devil.  I did believe he existed, and I believe there is a hell. In 1984 when I became a committed Christian, I started going to church every Sunday and bible study. That exposed me to not only the good spiritual things like God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and angels, but it also let me know how real the satan is.

I was so terrified that I could not even go to the bathroom during the night. I would wake my husband up to take me to the bathroom!!! Now you know that was really bad. One night I had a dream of a dog running after me and when I woke up, I was terrified. I told the dream to an elder in my new church named Bro. Jack who was up on these kinds of things. He said satan was trying to scare me and he has no power over me to destroy me. He also told me this story about an account Smith Wigglesworth had with the devil.

“Smith Wigglesworth awoke during the night aware of a satanic presence. Looking across the room, he saw the devil himself standing there. Wigglesworth said to Satan, “Oh, it’s only you.” Then he turned over and went back to sleep.”

Well that story scared the mess out of me, and I was even more petrified. But Bro. Jack told me something else that changed my life. He told me not to fear satan because he doesn’t have that kind of power over me because of what Jesus did for me on the cross. He said to say to the devil, “be gone” and he will flee from you. A few days later I had a dream with that same dog running after me. Oh, let me tell you about why this dream scared me so. When I was a child, a German shepherd got loose from a neighbor’s yard and chased me in my backyard into my house. I had always feared dogs since then.

So, I had the dream again and the dog was looking at me growling. I looked at the dog and said, “be gone” and he turn and ran away. Ever since then I had no more fear. James 4:7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

My next encounter was another dream. I was on stage at a theater and there was a balcony with the most beautiful glowing angel on it. It was speaking to me saying, “I have something to tell you!”. But as I waited for the message to come it faded away. I was so upset because I though God was speaking to me. So yeah, the next Sunday at church I again sought out Bro. Jack. He told me that it was a dream from the devil. I was shocked! He said the fact that the vision was glowing like that, and the message was never given proved that it was not from God. God would never give me an incomplete message. Also, satan likes to try to outdo God so that’s why it was glowing.

2 Corinthians 11:14 And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.

These unique lessons really taught me to be very careful about what I see and hear. That everything needs to line up with the word of God. Also, to test all things to make sure it’s from God. These Holy Spirit guided lessons have stayed with me my whole life.

I have only seen a few things in the dark side of the spirit world. Most of my spiritual life has been submitting myself to God, obeying Him, studying His word and worshipping Him. Ain’t nobody got time for the devil and his mess!

I know who I am in Christ. 1 John 4:4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

After Jesus shut the devil down when He was on earth the devil stopped messing with Jesus until he found other time to attack Him.

Luke 4:13 When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time.

He prowls around for an opportune time to try to take us down. But like Jesus, we have to know how to shut Him down too. We shut down the devil by knowing the word of God!!! We must have on the whole armor of God also!!!

1 John 3:8 The person who practices sin belongs to the evil one, because the Devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason that the Son of God was revealed was to destroy what the Devil has been doing.

Jesus already defeated the devil!!!! We should be doing a happy dance in our spirit! God truly had mercy on us!

The devil is still a formidable foe! Let’s keep it real here. He has and can interfere in our lives. We should also know that he does NOT have the power to destroy us!!! This is why we can sing “It is well with our soul” with assurance of our great outcome! There are things that can destroy our body…but NOTHING can destroy our soul, and no one can take us away from our Heavenly Father!!!

We CANNOT let the devil take away our Joy and our peace!!! The creator of ALL things is our Father, and nothing can take us out of His hands! He has sealed us with the Holy Spirit who is living inside of us. Wow wee!! Thank you, God!!!!! Thank you, Jesus!!!

Do things get hard sometimes? Yeah. Are we alone in this? NO! Gods got us! So what we’ve gotta do is to stay under His wings. Shelter in Him! Keep your mind on Him and not on your circumstances. If we’ve gotta cry out to God everyday because things are hard…then that is what we will do because our help comes from God!!! God never said things would be easy…but He said He would NEVER leave us out in the cold!!!!! We have got to hold on to Him for dear life! Don’t just touch the hem of His garment but climb into the deep pockets in His robe and hang out there until your deliverance from your situation takes place!!! Gather others to hang out there too. I will be there myself! We are all gonna be OK because we said yes to Jesus!!!!

Hebrew 13:6 So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?”

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.