This is who I am


Tanya 2015


For as long as I can remember I have always felt there was something different about me. I could tell this because of how other people have and do treat me. Even as a toddler I felt tired all the time. I took lots of naps around the age of 3-4. Even in nursery school I remember being tired. I was not athletic and have always had low energy. I had very weak ankles and sprained my ankle really bad as a little girl. I was always sick with lots of sore throat issues. I was always at the doctor with some illness and on antibiotics.

In my teenage years I had leg and body pain and headaches. In school teacher classified me as being smart but lazy. My school work was awful and I almost got left back. I was bullied from elementary school to High school which still stays with me to this very day. The wounds have healed but the scars are still there. I had few friends. At the age of 12 I tried to commit suicide and thought of it often. I felt like I was a mistake to be born.

It took years to overcome these negative things in my life…but I thank God for seeing me though everything and even using my suffering to change me in my heart to see others who are suffering and have great compassion for them. Every day is still a battle because I still suffer with several illnesses that has affected my health and personality. It has affected how others see me and interact with me. Because I never feel well it has caused me to be very quiet at times and needing to rest a lot. There are many times I just don’t feel like talking or being bothered.  I have to constantly deal with how I feel from one minute to the next and being in pain all day everyday. I have learned how to adapt. I’ve learned to rest a lot and try hard not to overdo things daily which can be very isolating at times.

I have a hard time showing emotions. It’s very hard to be jovial and animated when you don’t feel well. Since I have a hard time with verbalizing emotions, I have adopted a habit of doing things for others for two reasons. One…to encourage people and two to show the people I care about that I love them. It’s my way. It’s who I am and how I’ve learn to express myself. For those I care about….they just know I love them. In my world where words don’t come easily… I’ve made my way of expressing my love for others work for me.


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Jesus IS our very best friend!!!!!!



I have lost many friends and family who could not deal with who I am. There are few people in my daily world. These are very personal thoughts that I have and I feel I want to share them with you at this time in my life. I recently have had to understand with some things about myself. I have had to understand how this life long illness has affected who I am. I’ve looked at those who have hated me and those who love me. I have checked my heart to make sure I have forgiven all and I hold those close who have loved me regardless of my unique nature. I’m very thankful for the very best friend I have ever had and will ever have and that is Jesus Christ. He is who sustains me every day. My comforter, guide and greatest supporter and nurturer is the Holy Spirit who fills me up every day.  I’m so thankful for His constant presence.

Emotionally and physically my life has been a challenge…but I would not change anything at all. It’s who God has allowed me to be. All of my suffering has made me look to God so much for my help that it actually has lead me right to the foot of Gods throne in humility and worship. I praise God for so much grace and for every victory He’s given me to make it through all the challenges. All of these trials has also made me truly grateful for the new body and life I will have with my Father forever. I will be perfect in every way when I get to heaven! I will be changed by our creator into a glorified body. His transformation has already started in my spiritman and will be completed one day soon. Thank you Jesus!!!

There are people now who see me as God sees me… like my wonderful husband. How does this man survive with me and love me the way he does? I know he sees Jesus in me and I know his heart is full of the love of God because of the way he treats me and loves me.

I’m sure there are many people out there like me. One of these people may be your mother or father, sister or brother, kids, husband. We are not people who seem to be standoffish, snooty or stuck up. We are people who because of a variety of reasons act somewhat differently from what people classify as the “norm”. Everybody wants and needs to be loved. There is a great scripture that I’d like to leave you with….

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Matthew 22:36-40 Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”


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Does God REALLY love me?


heart jesus loves meThere was a time that I didn’t know how much God loved me.
I wasn’t’ sure of His love for me at all. I couldn’t see it or feel it.
Today when I was praying I was feeling His love so heavily.
I asked myself…”how do I really know that God loves me?”

Of course we know because the bible says He loves us.
But it is way deeper than that.

The first reason I know God loves me is because the more that I have studied about God and found out who He really is…the more that knowledge became real in my spirit and revealed truth to me!!!!!  The power of the Holy Spirit supernaturally confirmed this directly to me!!  God has a supernatural way that He communicates with me. I know that I know!

So for me….the more knowledge that I know about God…the more I feel His love and why He let Jesus do what He did for me!

The second reason I know God loves me is because of all the past miracles He did for me and also for the many victories he’s given me.
If I’m a Christian and I don’t know how much God loves I will faint…stumble….and doubt in His abilities to see me safely through my life. I WILL BE A VERY WEAK CHRISTIAN!
I really needed to share my revelation with you today. Be strong in God’s love!  God bless you!!!!!

Jesus feelings about His last weeks of earthly ministry


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Oh how He loves you and me

We all know why Jesus did what He did…but do we know at what cost to Himself emotionally?

Jesus prayed to His Father before He was crucified…..

Like 22: 41-44 He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” 43 An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44 And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.

Mathew 26:36-39   Then cometh Jesus with them unto a place called Gethsemane, and saith unto the disciples, Sit ye here, while I go and pray yonder.

37 And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy.

38 Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.

39 And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.

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A few things that really pulled at my heart:

  1. Jesus was in such ANGUISH that an angel had to come down from heaven to strengthen Him.  He needed supernatural help for Himself, for His heart…His soul…and His strength.  Why?
  2. He prayed with every bit of strength He had in His body.
  3. He prayed so hard that He was probably dehydrated and very very weak from His body releasing  great amounts of sweat to the point that it looked as thick as blood.
  4. In the past Jesus showed emotions like anger, disappointment, compassion, love and now being exceeding sorrowful to death.  This was a very powerful emotional state that Jesus was in. Why?
  5. Jesus….”FELL on His face!  That was a powerful show of emotions for a man to display.

Sin is rebellion against God!

Jesus was faced with seeing and experiencing the nastiest, vilest, most disgusting, horrible, horrific, horrendous, immoral, sadistic, evil, deviant behavior ever to be done by all humanity.  He was going to carry every sin onto Himself!!!  When we see stuff on TV that’s horrible like what that man who held those 3 young girls captive and tortured them for all those years and what happened in the killing field of the Sierra Leone…all this and much more… Jesus took on for all humanity/the world.

Jesus also had to deal with having His Father turn away from Him because Holy Father God could NOT look upon…”sin” that was going to inhabit Jesus even if it was going to be briefly.

Writing these things this way seems to bring this down to my understanding and does not show the intensity and seriousness of this horrible event in Jesus Life.

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What I think Jesus may have thought before His crucifixion:

My sacrificial time is almost here.  This is going to be so difficult to handle in this human form.  I must talk to my Father….I need to pray right now.  Let me get a few of those I trust to go with me and pray.

“Peter…brothers …come with me to pray.  I’m really feeling extremely burdened.  Wait here while I go over there to pray for a while.”

O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.

Father…what you have asked of me is so very hard to do.  I understand about your Holiness.  I know why I’m doing this and I’m OK with it because I know that it must be done.  It was our plan from the beginning.  I agreed to it because I wanted to be obedient and because of my heart and love that I have for your creations.  The thought of experiencing mankinds sin is horrifying to me.  My heart breaks to see the ugliness of it all Father.  My Father…I know if it was another way you would spare me of this.

I know that there are no other options.  I’m your one and only Son and I promise you that I will do this.  I will do anything to please you because I love you so much.  But Father…oh Father…. (Jesus is weakening because of the heavy anguish because He was human)  I need for you to strengthen me…please Father Please!!!!  I can barely breathe!  My heart is racing!  I can’t even stand up right now!  Oh my Father. (God sends an angel to increase His stamina)  Oh thank you Father!  Thank you

Father all the berating and all the severe beatings and torture I endured…. was all for them!!  I let them treat me like a worthless piece of trash because I know that what satan and all the evilness that he had planned for them is going to be defeated.  I know what the results are going to be for all my suffering.

Father….the thing that is the hardest pill for me to swallow is… having to turn away from me because of the sin I will bear for them.    I’m so deeply sorrowful about this.  Father…oh Father…if it be possible….if only it didn’t have to happen this way.   I love you so my Father that even the thought of one second away from your presence grieves me so.  Are you positive there is no other way to remove their original from them?  Father…I will do anything for you and I will do this because it is your will.  Your love for the world is so great that you would allow me your own Son who you are pleased with to go through this.  Oh my Father…I hope they will understand what you have done for them.  I hope they will understand that I’m letting them do this to me because I love them also so so much!!!!  Will they remember this?  Will they tell others?  Father…thank you for all that you have done to help me through my earthly ministry.  I love you Father!


This scenario is only my thoughts and not a anything more.  Jesus was human and had feeling.  We think of Him as coming to earth like Superman…but He was…human.  I cried as I thought of these things I wrote.  I don’t want to ever forget what my Jesus did for me.  I think about it every day!!  Jesus commanded that we celebrated Holy Communion in remembrance of His act of mercy and love towards us.  For me every day is Easter.   We are coming to a special day that we celebrate Jesus Christ death and resurrection.   Let’s also make sure that we keep the spiritual significance that this Christian holiday deserves and steer clear of all unimportant things pertaining to it.  Worthy is the Lamb of God our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

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10 Reasons why I have the best husband


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                                             10 reasons why I love my husband

  1. Because he loves me.
  2. He’s the father of my 6 beautiful children
  3. He accepts me for me
  4. Even when I had my breast removed he never blinked an eye
  5. He is patient with my crazy self
  6. He’s very gentle with me
  7. Put’s up with my nagging at times (I don’t do this much after 38 yrs of marriage..right Jim?…Right?)
  8. He knows me like a book
  9. He has the BEST voice! ( Gotta love that bass!)
  10. I saved the best reason for last…HE IS A TRUE MAN OF GOD!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 20: 6-7 Many a man claims to have unfailing love, but a faithful man who can find? 7 The righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him.

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James A. Nemley 1953-   He’s still with me baby!!  LOL!





How to love God more


I Love the Lord

Psalms 18:1   I will love you, O LORD, my strength.

The word “will” in this scripture is interesting because the meaning of will is intent.  Some bible translations have…I love you, O Lord my strength.  I personally Love the Lord…but I also know that my love for God grows and will continue to grow as my relationship continues to mature in Him.  So I am in love with the Lord and my love is getting stronger.  I will never be able to love the Lord the way I want to as a human being because I am not perfected yet and won’t be until my transition day when my body dies.

The motivational force in my life right now is my love for the Lord.  I’ve tried to give you all a break in hearing me say how much I love the Lord over and over again.  I could profess my love for the Lord all day everyday…but I know God wants me to keep a balance in my life.   So my life is filled with my faith in God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit…in family, church, prayer, bible study, my task for the Lord and sharing the good news of Jesus Christ.  My life is continually being in prayer with God on and off all day.  I have to be honest and tell you…the only time my mind is not on the Lord so much is when I’m shopping…I wish it was…it could probably save me some money LOL!  All kidding aside…my point is my love for the Lord is my strength.   God has been there for me through everything that has happened in my life.

I love the Lord so so much and I have this on my mind and in my heart all the time.  The Holy Spirit uses this in my life because He is always reminding me that I do love God a lot.  This helps me live a life pleasing to the Lord.  Like yesterday….I went to Burger king to get a salad for lunch…yes I know…a salad from Burger King.  I’m still committing to my New Year’s resolution  of eating better praise God!!  The cashier gave me back $10.00 to much…but…I love the Lord and want to shine for Him…I gave that money right back!  How could I keep that money loving God the way I do?  The Holy Spirit that lives in me and knows how much I love God and want to please Him is there to help me stay on track.  If I didn’t love God so much… I don’t think I would be so willing to live right and be all God wants me to be.  I think I would sin…a lot!

My love for God is so important to me and God’s love for me is so important to me because….He is the strength of my life.  This love thing between me and God keeps me going and keeps me strong.

How does one become so in love with God?

  1. Someone will one day tell you about His love.  My parents and my Sunday school teachers did for me.  This is how it begins for us.  Then it’s up to us to accept this love, accept Jesus Christ repent and believe in Him.
  2. You should pray…talk to God as much as you can.
  3. You should know all you can about the Lord which comes from reading and studying your bible.
  4. All the test and trials you go through and come out of is His love for you and when you learn to recognize this…it will expose His love for you.  Many test many victories equals lots of love.
  5. Understanding why Jesus came and did what He did will increase your love.  Think about this very often.  Let it be a part of your daily meditation and prayer.
  6. Don’t hold the negative things that happened to you against God because it is really for your good in the long run.  You just don’t understand it now.  But it has great incredible rewards!  God has promised us this.  What He has prepared for us is unimaginable….so hold on to His love and let it be your strength
  7. Time helps you love God more.  Give it time for this love to develop.  Over time as you see His overall purpose is for you to succeed in this life and everything He does is to bring you to maturity in Him you will fall deeper in love with Him. You have a life time…God willing. 
  8. Surrender 100% of yourself to Him.  When I married my husband…I made a commitment to Him.  We are committed to each other.  When you surrender yourself to the Lord you made a commitment to Him and He’s committed to you.  It’s an ongoing relationship that needs to be nurtured everyday…not just on Sunday, Easter and Christmas or when you have a need.  It takes dedication on our part to maintain this relationship on a level that will be in constant growth.
  9. We must learn to walk with God.  Study the bible information about Enoch…it’s powerful
  10. You must know God intimately.  This can be done because of the Holy Spirit dwelling in us.  God is a spirit and we need to approach Him in spirit and in truth and the Holy Spirit will help us to know God in a very close and personal way.

I used to wear a button like this everyday for the first 7 years of my walk with the Lord…but one day I felt it was time to take it off so I could let my light shine through my life and my walk with the Lord. I want my life to point people to Jesus.

So in closing….my prayer for you today is that you may gleam something from my blog and cultivate, improve and nurture your walk with the Lord.  My main motivation for writing these blogs is for everyone to love the Lord so much and love Him with your body, mind, and soul and deeply with your whole heart.  I know He is the strength of our lives and we need His strength so much.  We need to feel His love.  He is always pouring His love out on us…but we need to know this and feel this because this is what will enable us to hold on until our eternal life in Him has come.  Then we will be able to experience the full love of God….the love that all of our loved ones who have made it through their journey and are living in the fullness of that love… right now.

Oh…I love the Lord…He’s my love and….my strength!

Message for today:  Daily seek the Lord and your love for Him will grow.

Now that is some incredible love!!!!!

Valentine’s Prayer…God is Love


1 John 4:8  Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

Today is Valentine’s Day and the name Valentine goes back to 269AD when two Christians named  Valentine from Terni and Rome were martyred.   February 14th was the day chosen to honor them.    But it wasn’t until the 14th century when a few poets from England wrote about love and a bird’s time for finding a mate in England… that is when this holiday really began to take shape.

Whatever the true reason is for this holiday celebration…I believe it’s a great one because the greatest fact about the nature of God our Father is that……GOD IS LOVE!  John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

So… today as we think of those we love in a special way…let’s consider the beginning of love…”GOD“.

Dearest heavenly Father,

I want to thank you for the precious gift of love that you have given to the world and to me.  Thank you for blessing me with this love and the strength that I get from you every single day.  Without your love for me I can’t be….I can’t function….I can’t even breathe…because I NEED your love to sustain me.  It’s like food and medicine for my soul Lord.

 Please continue to let me feel your comforting love in my life and Lord I give myself over to you to perfect in me this gift of love…that I may be able to express it and share it with others.  Lord…I have not always been good at this…forgive me.  Father God…some people are harder to love than others…but I want to be like your Son Jesus…so please continue the work you are doing in my life so that my heart will be like yours. In Jesus name I pray.

 God I love you so much and Father……… Happy Valentine’s day!  From me your child. XOXO

1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us.

Message for today: Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love!

What About Jesus? Oprah’s Statement Part 3

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Jesus Loves You So Much

This is a continuation of my thoughts on a statement Oprah made on her talk show. Please read part 1 and 2 before you read this.

Oprah’s statment:

I would also like to say here that I have no ill will towards Oprah herself…only this statement and her why behind it. She has done so many great things with her life and I truly respect her for that. This will probably be my last blog on the statement.

Jesus gave up His life so that we mortals can have eternal life. We are flawed and require a sacrifice to be right with God. Everybody has and will have a chance to accept Jesus or not….that is a person’s choice. You cannot see God without Jesus Christ…this is not my random thoughts… it’s in the bible…so it comes down to believing what the bible says which is Gods words to us and the Holy Spirit confirmation of His word to our spirit man.

Jesus was human when He came down to earth for His ministry and to be a human sacrifice for mans soul. Do you think He really wanted to be so brutally tortured and murdered? Why did He willing give up His own life?…….This is the answer……He did it out of His “LOVE for us.

Ephesians 5:2 and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Can anyone really understand the amount of Love Jesus has for us? I have felt the love of Jesus in a very unique way which will be in my book I have written about my unusual experiences with the Lord in prayer…but I want to tell you a small piece of it now.

In a vision I had in prayer I got to experience the love of Jesus. All I want to say at this time is I felt a microscopic drop of it and it was taking love and multiplying it by a trillion times a trillion….It was so overwhelming that I simply didn’t want it to stop and I no longer want to be earth-bound, but the Lord told me I had more work to do here so….here I am…writing this blog. Writing this experience on the blog cannot really express what I felt that day. It’s hard to explain such an emotionally deep experience.

When I first started my prayer experiences with the Lord I saw a vision of Jesus eyes as a boy. They were large brown eyes and the Love I saw in those eyes is still in my brain as if I just saw it today and this was 24 years ago. (I believe Jesus was teaching me to keep my eyes on Him)

Jesus is love….His life here on earth was all about love. His life points to the Father who is love. Am I special because these things happened to me?……..No way!!!!! Look at this scripture:

John 14:21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”

I believed this when I became a committed Christian…..I wanted to see Jesus…..and it’s possible to see and experience Him here on earth and when it’s my time to be up there……I’m going to see Him….I’m going to look right into His loving eyes and He is going to hug me and welcome me home to the place He has prepared for me.

When I get to Heaven...What a day it will be

So…what about Jesus?…..well He is the key that unlocks the door and enables anybody to receive Him and gain entrance to heaven to be with His Father, Himself and the Holy Spirit.

My mom and my baby brother whom I’ve never seen are waiting for me. Thank you Jesus…Thank you for all you’ve done for me!….I love you so!

Message for today: It is…all about Jesus.

There is only one way to God and to understand this…You must understand who God really is.  Please keep seeking for answers.  Your very life depends on it.


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Love and Hurt Satchel Paige


Some of Satchel’s famous quotes:

Don’t pray when it rains, if you don’t pray when the sun shines.

Age is a question of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter.

It is this quote that I heard that has been running through my head:

Love like you’ve never been hurt.

Satchel Paige was a Baseball player and a baseball hall of Famer. He was quite outspoken and has been quoted a lot over the years. The above quote has been bothering me all week. I’m really sick of hearing it in my head….but….I know God is doing something here……I just know His MO.

I feel I have been hurt a lot over my life time and I have gotten the victory over much of that hurt with the help of the Lord. But recently I’ve had a lot of hurt resurface as well as new hurt. Here are a few scriptures that can snap you out of that state of hurt:

Proverbs 17:9 Love prospers when a fault is forgiven, but dwelling on it separates close friends.(NLT)

Colossians 3:13 Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others.

Love like you’ve never been hurt.

Yup…These scriptures are hurt busters for sure….if… let them be that…..if….you obey them. It’s hard and there are times that you cannot do it on your own….YOU NEED GOD’S HELP!

Personally…..I like to hold on to my hurt quietly and stew….sometimes I can make a whole pot of stew and have enough to feed everyone in the neighborhood. When I’m having a great walk in the spirit….I can overcome the feelings of hurt like an Olympic champion. I’m usually on the mountain top at these times. When I’m in the valley I’m very vulnerable to hurt.

Being in the attitude of LOVE 100% is very hard to maintain. We need to keep ourselves in check by asking ourselves….what would Jesus do with the hurt? I know He would pray about it…I know that. I think about the bible story when Jesus was not a happy camper when they were selling stuff and swindling people in the temple…I’m sure He was hurt to see that going on in His Father’s house. He went buck wild in there throwing over the change tables. The difference with Him was He had a right to do what He did. We have no right to hold on to hurt…in fact God doesn’t like it at all. Say the Lord’s pray to yourself…….Ok…did you?……You know that part about forgiving those who trust past against us?….Yeah….that’s what I’m talking about.

Love like you’ve never been hurt!

Now….I don’t know if Satchel Paige was a Christian, but that quote is something to really think about…and I’ve been thinking.

I do know this fact…..God is love…and He wants us to be forgiving.

Hurt Zombie

Getting over hurt….and loving the hurter is one of the hardest biblical lessons for me to follow. Hurt is like a zombie. You finally get away from it and you feel safe for a while…sometimes a long while….and then….here comes that hurt zombie with his arms out calling…come here…come here. What needs to be done is either #1 or #2:

1. Turn around and knock that zombie’s head off.
2. Submit yourself to God, resist the zombie influence over you, love and pray for him and the stress will flee from you.

You know #2 is the right answer…don’t even think about #1!

Message for today: Love….Love….Love!

What Time Is It?


Mark 16:15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.

It is time to go into the entire world and tell all people….neighbors….friends….family….co-workers…acquaintances.…..and complete strangers about the good news of Jesus Christ. It is the time and has been the time since this great commission has been given.

In the past few months we have had, earthquakes, hurricanes, floods, hailstorms, fires, extreme heat, and tornados. Many people have lost their lives and have lost their houses, businesses, cars and belongings. The emotional effect that all of this has had on people is tremendous. Right now we know that people need financial help to get back to a place of physical comfort…but people also need hope and encouragement.

This is the TIME for us Christians to be discerning, wise, spirit led, gospel spreading, love overflowing, encouraging, caring, helpful, Jesus imitating, people that God wants us and has instructed us to be.

What time is it? It’s time to tell others about the good news….John 3:16….so others might experience God’s grace and mercy for their lives. Many are upset, confused, and discouraged by all that has happen to them right now and there are many hurting souls that are looking for answers and help. It’s time to speak up… walk the talk…..let our light shine….lead folks to the light…our Lord Jesus Christ.

Mathew 5:14-16 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

To my Christian brothers and sisters out there…..please share your faith and the hope you have with anyone the Lord leads you to. I know it’s challenging to start talking about Jesus to people, but you are not alone in this….the Holy spirit does the big work….He’s already working on people before you open your mouth….we need to be ready, prepared and available. The time is now…..this is your season. The Lord gave me this message today…..God speaks…I listen….and share.

Message for today: Somebody is waiting for you to share your faith…..Your neighbor has been watching you… to see how you a Christian…. is handling your stressful situation….Your co-worker loss her home and is depressed… will you act….what will you do…what will you say…. What time is it?….look at your watch right now….that’s what time it is….yup….it’s now…Let’s roll!

How to Pray?? The Big Question

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Many people have asked this question and many people have written books, have had seminars and preached on this topic. Why, how, what, when…… what more can I say about it? Have you read my blog about Kissing the feet of Jesus? I’ve shared my heart about my prayer life……yet I still feel I have something more to say.

I’m going to say something shocking here…….Prayer is not complicated!! Ok that wasn’t really that shocking but I wanted to get your attention. To tell you the truth….How to pray is a weird question to me….it’s like asking how to love….how to eat… to breath?

When I fell in love for the very first time in junior high school I just knew how to love…it came natural. I feel when you fall in love with the Lord talking to Him should be so natural……oh you say…..Fall in love with the Lord? Yes….this is a personal relationship. In 1984 I did fall totally in love with God. I had always loved Him in a distant way….knowing about Him….being told about Him….reading about Him….going to church….singing about Him…..asking for His help in trouble….you know all the regular dealings with God.

But In that year of 1984 I came to know God on a whole different level…..I feel so head over heels in Love with God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. What was the difference in this relationship that wasn’t there before? I allowed God to fully come into my life and take charge of me. Because I felt the light of His love and nature…. it exposed my own nature and I became very very sorry for all my sins. I opened myself fully to Him to accept all His love for me and I felt Him inside my soul spirit and body restoring me to a whole blood washed by Jesus person. This was an incredible experience for me. I was so happy, so excited…..I was free from the weights that had pulled me down for years. Who would and could do this for me?….who had that kind of power? It was the Lord…..I was changed and my feelings for Him changed they got deeper.

Now about prayer which is my topic for today. I wanted to know EVERTHING about God and the only way to get this info was to read the bible which I did and then came my prayer life. I did use the Lord ’s Prayer as my beginning guide. But it wasn’t enough for me and the Holy Spirit Himself helped me to pray. I wanted more of God so bad……I waited for Him to talk back to me and He did. The first thing I ever heard Him say to me was…..He called me by my name….and then……He told me He loved me. Tears were streaming down my face as I heard my Heavenly Fathers voice for the first time. I was truly in love…He touched me in my heart. After this there was no stopping me because like Helen Keller when she first understood about sign language and she ran around the room touching and signing….that was me.

I went around telling people that I fell in love with Jesus and people were looking at me with one eyebrow up saying…well alrighty now…that’s nice. Nice that was great to me!

Let me tell you all….I talked God’s head off!! I talked and talked to Him for up to 8 hours a day 7 days a week. Just ask my family. I was told by someone in church that I prayed too much. Someone even told me the reason I suffer with chronic fatigue was because of my prayer life. I just smiled and thought they had a problem because that was a crazy statement….you can’t talk to God too much.

Now everyone does not have to pray that long……that was just me…..I am a prayer intercessor and I have prayed for many people during those blessed years of my life. The longest I pray now is about 2 hours and that’s when the Holy Spirit calls me to that kind of intercession. My prayer now is talking to God on and off throughout the day and daily prayer with my husband.

My whole point here is not to concentrate on the how to….but to concentrate on Him….God….talk to Him…get to know Him…..let Him fully take you over. Melt in His loving arms…drink from His streams of refreshing waters…..Hear and know the sound of His voice….want to be with Him…clutch the bible like it is His love letters to you and hold them close in your heart if fact hide them there. This is how to pray….pray with love for God….His Spirit will lead you and guide you….just be willing to go.

Will someone find you in the secret place…..the garden….where you are alone with the Lord? Will you meet often with the lover of your soul? Who can Love you will all your imperfections? Who can love you so deeply? Who can wash your soul and make you clean? Who can make you so happy despite your circumstance? Who has a mansion waiting for you when you come back home?…..The lover of your soul…God. How do you pray?……Pray with Love…..Pray with Love…..this is the motivating force of my worship and prayers to God……I love Him….so.

Message for today: Change your…. how to pray…..with…. love to pray.

Don’t get prayed up for a rainy day……pray because of Oh happy day.

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