We all know why Jesus did what He did…but do we know at what cost to Himself emotionally?
Jesus prayed to His Father before He was crucified…..
Like 22: 41-44 He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” 43 An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44 And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.
Mathew 26:36-39 Then cometh Jesus with them unto a place called Gethsemane, and saith unto the disciples, Sit ye here, while I go and pray yonder.
37 And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy.
38 Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.
39 And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
A few things that really pulled at my heart:
- Jesus was in such ANGUISH that an angel had to come down from heaven to strengthen Him. He needed supernatural help for Himself, for His heart…His soul…and His strength. Why?
- He prayed with every bit of strength He had in His body.
- He prayed so hard that He was probably dehydrated and very very weak from His body releasing great amounts of sweat to the point that it looked as thick as blood.
- In the past Jesus showed emotions like anger, disappointment, compassion, love and now being exceeding sorrowful to death. This was a very powerful emotional state that Jesus was in. Why?
- Jesus….”FELL on His face! That was a powerful show of emotions for a man to display.
Sin is rebellion against God!
Jesus was faced with seeing and experiencing the nastiest, vilest, most disgusting, horrible, horrific, horrendous, immoral, sadistic, evil, deviant behavior ever to be done by all humanity. He was going to carry every sin onto Himself!!! When we see stuff on TV that’s horrible like what that man who held those 3 young girls captive and tortured them for all those years and what happened in the killing field of the Sierra Leone…all this and much more… Jesus took on for all humanity/the world.
Jesus also had to deal with having His Father turn away from Him because Holy Father God could NOT look upon…”sin” that was going to inhabit Jesus even if it was going to be briefly.
Writing these things this way seems to bring this down to my understanding and does not show the intensity and seriousness of this horrible event in Jesus Life.
What I think Jesus may have thought before His crucifixion:
My sacrificial time is almost here. This is going to be so difficult to handle in this human form. I must talk to my Father….I need to pray right now. Let me get a few of those I trust to go with me and pray.
“Peter…brothers …come with me to pray. I’m really feeling extremely burdened. Wait here while I go over there to pray for a while.”
O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
Father…what you have asked of me is so very hard to do. I understand about your Holiness. I know why I’m doing this and I’m OK with it because I know that it must be done. It was our plan from the beginning. I agreed to it because I wanted to be obedient and because of my heart and love that I have for your creations. The thought of experiencing mankinds sin is horrifying to me. My heart breaks to see the ugliness of it all Father. My Father…I know if it was another way you would spare me of this.
I know that there are no other options. I’m your one and only Son and I promise you that I will do this. I will do anything to please you because I love you so much. But Father…oh Father…. (Jesus is weakening because of the heavy anguish because He was human) I need for you to strengthen me…please Father Please!!!! I can barely breathe! My heart is racing! I can’t even stand up right now! Oh my Father. (God sends an angel to increase His stamina) Oh thank you Father! Thank you
Father all the berating and all the severe beatings and torture I endured…. was all for them!! I let them treat me like a worthless piece of trash because I know that what satan and all the evilness that he had planned for them is going to be defeated. I know what the results are going to be for all my suffering.
Father….the thing that is the hardest pill for me to swallow is…..you having to turn away from me because of the sin I will bear for them. I’m so deeply sorrowful about this. Father…oh Father…if it be possible….if only it didn’t have to happen this way. I love you so my Father that even the thought of one second away from your presence grieves me so. Are you positive there is no other way to remove their original from them? Father…I will do anything for you and I will do this because it is your will. Your love for the world is so great that you would allow me your own Son who you are pleased with to go through this. Oh my Father…I hope they will understand what you have done for them. I hope they will understand that I’m letting them do this to me because I love them also so so much!!!! Will they remember this? Will they tell others? Father…thank you for all that you have done to help me through my earthly ministry. I love you Father!
This scenario is only my thoughts and not a anything more. Jesus was human and had feeling. We think of Him as coming to earth like Superman…but He was…human. I cried as I thought of these things I wrote. I don’t want to ever forget what my Jesus did for me. I think about it every day!! Jesus commanded that we celebrated Holy Communion in remembrance of His act of mercy and love towards us. For me every day is Easter. We are coming to a special day that we celebrate Jesus Christ death and resurrection. Let’s also make sure that we keep the spiritual significance that this Christian holiday deserves and steer clear of all unimportant things pertaining to it. Worthy is the Lamb of God our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!