1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

It was a beautiful day in 1995, but not so nice for me.  I was suffering every day from a rare undiagnosed medical condition.  These awful stroke-like episodes came on me daily and this day I thought it was going to be my last day on earth.  I was home alone too.  I sat in my kitchen chair and leaned my head back not knowing how far todays horrible symptoms would take me.  I was having a great deal of trouble breathing.

I didn’t call anyone or try to go to the ER because I had been having these episodes so often and doctors had no idea what wrong with me so why bother to call an ambulance.  I leaned my head back in my chair and I remember how scared I was and how desperate I felt in that moment.  I felt like I was going to pass out, so I very quickly asked God to forgive me of all my sins.  I was already a Christian, but I felt that I needed to make sure that my heart was totally clean inside.  I wanted to repent for anything that I had done because I thought any second I was going to die. Psalms 6:2 Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint; heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.

My mother- in- law who is home with the Lord had to be bought back to life with CPR and the electric shock paddles.   She told me the exact same thing happened to her.  She said she asked God to forgive her in those frightening moments when she thought she wasn’t going to live.

We humans, all over the entire world right now are being faced with the possibility of illness and or death.  This is a time to ask God to forgive you, to wash you clean.  It’s truly a time to seek repentance.

This is not meant to be a discouraging blog to today.  But it’s an uplifting thing to feel clean inside of your soul.  Cleansing is available because of the shed blood of Jesus Christ. The blood of Jesus can wash our spiritual insides clean when we repent or ask for forgiveness for the wrong or sinful things that we have done.

This is a very strange and difficult time for humanity, but there is a peace that comes over us when we are right with God!

I still suffer with many illnesses.  I’ve had cancer, major surgeries and a stroke. I have 2 rare disorders, and many medical problems.  There are many things that I have learned throughout all of these problems and that is to make sure that I’m living as God has told me to live in the bible.  I also know that I want my heart to be clean. 

I want to live like today is my last day on planet earth.  To me that means telling as many people about Jesus as possible and also appreciating those around me like family and friends. Lastly, I’ve learned to keep my relationship with God on a high level, not for God, but for me.  With all that I’m going through and what is going on in this world…I NEED all that GOD has to offer me!!!!

1 Peter 4:12-13 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

Psalms 27:4-5 One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent and set me high upon a rock.