I may be a little odd and a little quirky, but I am a person with real feelings and I have some insecurities. Having been bullied as a child and as a adult I just need a friend who sees me as a person and whose not judgemental. A person who will not take my behavior personally. A friend that’s with me for the long haul. Someone who can handle someone who’s been sick with a medical condition all my life. Quality I value?….A person who is CARING AND PATIENT!
My Big Announcment!!!
May 7, 2024

MY BIG ANNOUNCMENT! I just finished writing my latest book. It’s called, A Handbook for Suffering”. I feel my life’s purpose has been to write this book for everyone who is going through challenging times. My trials have been so hard it seemed as if I was being squeezed out like a sponge.
I have basically suffered with some kind of trial from toddlerhood to right now. Physical, emotional, and medical! I have collected a wealth of information. I will share every drop of how I have gotten through and am getting through the suffering.
There is no magic formula to eliminate pain and suffering. But there is a way to get through it! Please pray for me as every force has tried to stop me from getting this book of encouragement out to you. I’ve got a way to go until it’s released, but I want you to know it is coming! I pray you will get a copy and share it with someone who is going through a difficult time. God bless you!
A sample of some chapters:
Chapter …….Why does God allow extreme Suffering?
Chapter……..The fellowship of His sufferings, Whoa!
Chapter …….The Sovereignty of God
Chapter ……. Having Hope!
Chapter….Dealing with fear…
P.S.- Thank you to so many of you who have followed my plight/blog throughout the years.
Mandisa’s Transparency
April 22, 2024

While there is no cause given for Mandisa’s death many knew she suffered from depression. I would like to honor her by taking a few minutes to advocate for something she was passionate about. Mandisa was very public with her struggle which is not easy to admit to the whole world. Many people these days are turning to suicide to relieve their emotional pain. Suicide is also popular with our youth. It’s very difficult to know who is suffering in this way because many people hide their true emotions. They may even put on a happy face to their friends and family.
Suicide to me means that a person has lost all hope and feels totally alone in their heart and mind. There is a saying, “tell me how you really feel!” I wish people suffering like this could.
So, what can we do? Praying about suicide is our best solution. We also need to educate ourselves on signs to watch out for. If you’re a mom or dad pry quietly into your kid’s life as best as you can. For friends ask questions if they seem a little stressed. We should keep a watchful eye on our Christian brothers and sisters, especially those in any type of ministry. But sometimes people are very secretive and there are just no clues at all.
If you are feeling this way yourself, please, please, please, please, please, please find help! I know what I’m talking about. Many years ago, I had to fight for my mental health. I did get the victory, thank God! Taking your own life is never the answer. When you are in this state of mind it is very hard to advocate for yourself. This is why you need help from an outside source. Take advantage of this free resource: Suicide and Crisis Lifeline; Just Dial 988 on your phone. On line the do have a chat. Hang in there! People do care about you!

Eclipse 2024 and God
April 8, 2024

Today a total eclipse occurred. So many people agreed that sharing this experience with others even strangers was spectacular. What is spectacular is that Jesus Christ visited earth to give all humans a chance to go to heaven to be with God which is the most spectacular event ever. People believed today that this eclipse was going to happen and that it would be amazing. And it was.
Genesis 1:1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.
But who made the sun, the moon, and the planets. We even got to see two of the planets today in addition to seeing the sun and moon. Who made all these spectacular creations? God!!!!
Did He get much acknowledgment about His handiwork today? Maybe not too much but I’m going to give Him some praise in my blog today. God You are an amazing universe designer! Thank you for this planet, for sustaining it and for creating humanity! To God be all the glory!
Genesis 1:1-5 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.
2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.
3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.
4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.
5 And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.
Kansas City Chiefs Parade Shooting – Why?
February 15, 2024

Isaiah 43:2 When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.
Over the years I have written several blogs after a mass killing and other disasters. Unfortunately, things have not changed, and they won’t either. Why? The first reason for which I’ve stated in previous blogs is because all these things was predicted in the bible! The second reason why is people who are not Christians, saved, and born again are going to do what the devil tells them to. The bible states this very clearly. So then, this IS our new normal!
Is it difficult to live in this world today? Definitely YES! Should I be scared? Not really scared but more like concerned. We should be wise and careful. There is a lot of surveillance equipment and alarms that we can purchase. We can be cautious when we are out and about. We can have extra food, supplies and batteries in case of a storm or natural disaster.
Our greatest peace though will come only from Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. If we don’t have them in our lives, we will not survive this world’s very stressful situations. We MUST continue to live trusting fully in God’s protection. Even if something does happen, even if we get a bad report from the doctor, even if we lose our job or our home…. GOD WILL BE THERE! Even if we lose our life…. we will be in the presense of God. So, what does this all mean?
Today in 2024 we need Jesus so much more!
My new daily routine…In the morning as soon as I open my eyes…I give God praise. I tell Him how much I love Him. I ask Him to help me through my day. Sometimes I ask for specific prayer requests. At the end of the day, I thank Him for all He did for me.
My health has been EXTREMLY CHALLENGING! I use to sing “Precious Lord take my hand.” Not anymore! I sing precious Lord take my hold body and carry me around! I can’t even breath without God! I can’t walk, talk or think right without God! I need God like a baby needs its mother to survive!!!
People….we can’t live our life without Gods strength anymore!!!! Fear not and hang in there!!!
I leave you with one of the most encouraging scriptures:
Psalms 23:4 Even when walking through the dark valley of death I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me, guarding, guiding all the way.
God Forgive Me!!!!
February 6, 2024

Before I Die!
I want to tell you something very important that you may not know that happens in the moments when you feel like you’re going to die. This has happened to me twice in my 71 years of life. The first thing that came into my mind and out of my mouth was….” God, Please forgive me for any sins that I have committed”.
I was not expecting to say that. It was an instant instinct. I wanted my soul to be clean before I saw God. Although I knew that I have been ready to meet God for a very long time, I wanted to make sure my soul was clean.
I mentioned this to my mother-in-law who is home with the Lord now who also had near death experiences. She told me the exact same thing about asking God for forgiveness for any sins. In order to see God, we must be cleaned by the blood of the Lamb who is Jesus Christ. He is the only one who has the power to clean our soul spiritually so that we are holy enough to see God!
We should be living like any minute could be our last. We should be living a holy life because God commands us to. Any of us could die at anytime, anywhere, anyhow. I have been sick for a very long time. The thing that gives me so much peace is knowing that it is well with my soul, meaning that I’m good with God. Looking death in the face made me wanted to be sparkling clean AKA holy for my Father God!
Sometimes people have moments before death arrives and sometime death is instant with no chance to make a quick confession for repentance for my sin and ask for forgiveness. Please consider my story today. I write this because I know what happens to a person who haven’t ask for God’s forgiveness, believed and also asked Jesus to come into their lives. The Holy Spirit has been asking you and following you around for years so that you can live with God forever on the day your life has ended. Hell is real and you don’t want to wind up there!
Everybody can see that things on earth are escalating rapidly. I don’t want to list out all the catastrophes because you see it and are maybe experiencing it. Is it well with your soul? Are you clean inside your spirit to meet God? As it is said…. Are you prepared to meet your maker? This may sound like doom and gloom, but I tell you it is a joyous thing when you have complete peace about where your soul will be in eternity! I have that peace!
Hebrews 12:14 Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.
Matthew 5:8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Romans 6:22 But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life.
(I haven’t been blogging much these days but when I feel the importance of something I will)
New Year’s 2024 Message and Prayer
January 1, 2024

For the past many years now humanity has been facing a variety of life’s obstacles. We must face the fact that evidence is showing us that this year will be no different. Even though the world seems to be going in different directions spiritually, morally and disaster wize , there is one thing that is very stable throughout all of life’s challenges.
Hebrews 13: 8 says “ Jesus Christ is the Same yesterday , today , and forever. “ Backed up by MALACHI 3: 6 that says “ For I am the LORD , I change not . God is still God and is sovereign over all things. It is not up to us to judge what He does or doesn’t do. He is far too superior for us to fathom His ways. For us, it matters about our soul! Who owns it and where it will wind up when all is said and done!
There is NOT going to be a big sweeping revival all over the land now. The bible explained very clearly what will happen in the last days. So, what should Christians do? First, love God like crazy, be holy and obey Him! This is our mandate from God. Second, if you are not a Christian and are not looking to be, please reconsider. Nobody is going to live forever on earth. After death you will live forever somewhere in a place that is great or in a place of eternal grief. You have time to investigate this now and come to a decision.

Going forward life is going to continue to be very challenging, but I know that God is telling me to be faithful or full of faith until the end. I am to stay focus on my purpose and God’s will for my life. I need to do what I can for the kingdom of God and to trust God for all my needs and support. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus. I will keep a balance by limiting looking at the news. I need to do something for others even if it just a phone call or making a meal to show Christ love. I need to let others see Jesus in my life and be a light in this world. I need to be ready at all times for the bridegroom’s appearance!!! I know my purpose for remaining here for 71 years now.
Father God, please show us all which way to go and show us your will for the rest of our time here on earth. For those who are struggling in some area of their life, please help and strengthen them. Have mercy on us Lord! I ask this in Jesus’ name…Amen. God bless you all in this New Year!!!
All I Want For Christmas Is You! “Jesus”
December 7, 2023

Mariah Carey made a #1 Christmas hit in 1994. This song with some of the words changed around would fit my spiritual life. Jesus’ name is already in the title!
All I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true (Some day! Heaven can wait a bit!)
All I want for Christmas is you… Jesus! (I’m Born again, Good 4 now!)
Ever since I turned 70 last year all I can think about is how much closer I am to seeing God! We here on earth are getting ready to celebrate Christmas. Although we don’t know the exact date it doesn’t matter to me because I’m just so grateful that Emanuel, Yeshua, The Son of God, Jesus came so I can have the assurance that I will be in Heaven one day. Christmas has a different meaning for me now.
When my husband and I raised our 6 kids we made sure they knew it was a Jesus birthday celebration. We read the Christmas story on Christmas Eve with them. We let them know it’s all about Jesus! Christmas day we had a cake and sang Happy Birthday to Him.
This Christmas as a senior citizen I have a whole new perspective about Christmas. Christmas represents the beginning promise of the Kingdom of God! It’s about a promise that was made that if I accepted this baby that grew into a man and sacrificed His own life for me that I’m promised a home in heaven when this earth suite I wear becomes unusable. As a senior citizen my main focus is to serve God and to share my faith with every bit of strenght I have left!!!
I’m so excited that I’m so much closer to this great new beginning for my soul. I’m waiting with GREAT expectation for that glorious and joyful day.
But while I wait, I will continue try to let people know about the true story of Jesus birth, death, and resurrection. I’m excitingly waiting for my turn to see God face to face. As Mariah’s song says, “I don’t want a lot for Christmas”. All I want is for others to repent, know and accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior.
THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT FOR WHOMSOEVER!!!!
JOY TO THE WORLD THE LORD HAS COME!!!!!!!!!!!
Matthew 1:21 She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.
Message Inspired By MORE World Events
October 23, 2023

I wrote this message for a teaching that I gave recently. It has really helped me and I pray it gives you some comfort also.
October 17, 2023
My Little Children…I call you that because you are so dear to me! Everything that is going on around you has been prophesied by me and is written in my word. All world events, All human behavior events and all extreme weather and land events. There is not one thing that is happening that has escaped my eye.
Vision I got:
I see each one of us looking around at all the commotion and I see Jesus holding our hands and saying…”Look at me! Look at me!” “Keep your eyes on me!”
Do you know how powerful I am? Do you know how wise I am? Don’t you know how Holy I am? I’ve got this and I’ve got you! I’ve made provisions and promises about world events and about your lives before this world was ever made. My promises are true! My words are pure. If I said it, it will come to pass.
Keep focused on My plan and My will for your life. If you love me, obey my word. Your adversary wants to derail my plans for my creations, but I’ve given you all the help and support that you could possibly need! Don’t be pulled to the left or to the right. Don’t sink down in your spirit because of so much pressure.
Do not live in fear! Do not let fear become the daily abuser of your emotions and mental stability.
Nobody in the world or in this universe loves you as much as I do. Let my love be a healing balm for you that is constantly nourishing your soul.
My word reveals that the future for all of creation WILL be challenging, but you don’t have to worry about your future because it has already been decided and finished at Calvary. The fate of this world and your lives are sealed. The King of Kings and Lord of Lords will come back here to rule and to rein, and you will be with Him!
Meditate on this, keep it in your heart. Let your sleep be peaceful because of your knowledge of the grace that covers you. Wake up every morning with the assurance that you were bought for a price. You are protected and in my loving care.
From Your Father who art in heaven.
Maui Lahaina, Hawaii Fires and other Trials
August 14, 2023

A lot is going on right now in our country. There are natural disasters, man caused disasters, wars and war threats, killings and illnesses and even a resurgence of tuberculous and leprosy. Covid is still here. Inflation is at an all-time high. Fentanyl use is off the chart. There are many unusual things happening also.
What are we to make of all of this?
2 Timothy 3:1 But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. But Jesus said: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
If you are feeling fearful or are going through an extreme trial right now there are 3 things that have been helping me. One is I keep my mind on Jesus Christ and the second thing is I remember that it IS well with my soul no matter what’s happening to me. The 3rd thing is the grace of God is there for me! I hold on to these 3 things tightly. It may sound simple but it’s what can help. God has said not to lean on our understanding and that His ways are higher than ours. I can’t control what is going on around me. I am holding on to what I know the scriptures say about all of this. I need to trust God no matter what!
I know there are just some things that I will never understand about suffering, and I NEED TO BE OK WITH THAT! I am holding on to all the times God has helped me in the past during hard times. I’m singing the song “Precious Lord take my hand” and I’m reading the 23rd Psalm a lot.
I know many of you are going through very hard times also and I’m so sorry for your pain. There is so much more I can say about this but, I pray these mere words can bring a little relief in these situations. Hang in there…..with Jesus. Don’t stop praying and asking God for help!
Psalms 23:4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Father God, We pray for all the extreme situations that are going on in people’s lives right now. Some are fearful, confused, depressed, distressed, brokenhearted, and downright discouraged. God, we cry out to you for help and strength. Comfort those who have lost so much especially their loved ones. Please hear our cries. Please help all who are in need. Thank you so much. In Jesus name we pray…Amen