I’m in my prayer closet….well just coming out of it and most of my prayer time has been just telling God how incredible He is and how much I want to be with Him. 1% of me wants to be here on earth when I’m in my prayer closet and 99% wants to be with God. When I’m not in my prayer closet it’s more like 25% wants to be here and 75% want to be with God.
When I’m in my prayer closet…I’m barely here on earth emotionally and spiritually. It’s that intense. Why and what happens? LOVE!! The love of God and the communication we have at that time is overpowering to me. I seek Him and He’s there!
God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are EVERYTHING to me! I’m truly thankful for the earthly relationships He has given me (husband, children, family and friends) but God and His love for me is so overwhelming in my life that it makes me long for heaven. I love God with every cell in my body. I love Him with every emotion I have and everything in my brain. There are no words to describe how much God loves me and how much I love Him. (God loves us ALL like that! Just seek Him and you will find Him.)
So when I die….when my physical body is alive no more….I want my family and friends to really celebrate my HOMEGOING! No flowers…just balloons…No sad songs…just Songs of Gods praise and Joy. I want scriptures of hope and promise. I want testimonies on the victories I’ve had in my life. I want hope of an eternal future for all who call out to Jesus for forgiveness. I want to be with my Father in Heaven and I want all those I love to be with me there one day also.
You may think to yourself….”this is a strange blog from Tanya today”. But I tell you this….I can’t help it and don’t want to help it because I can’t wait to see the Love of my life. I dream about seeing the face of my God. I can feel His presence when I’m deep in my prayer close and it just makes me want to run into His loving arms. He thought of me in His mind and then He created me. He gave me life. He befriended me. He established a personal relationship with me. He put a part of Himself in me and this unbelievable being lives inside of me and His name is….Holy Spirit. I depend on Him for everything in every area of my life. He NEVER leaves my side!!!!! He reveals the secret things of God to me. I’m overwhelmed at all God has done to make Himself real to me and He keeps in communication with me 24/7.
The thing that touches me the most out of all of this is the amount of love He has for me!! I can’t get enough of it!
So when I die….be happy for me….I won’t be thinking about you at all…LOL! Because….I will be in my Father’s arms!!!!!!!!!!!
2 Corinthians 5:8 We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.
Philippians 1:23 I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far;