Depression….Darkness….Despair

 

 

Psalms 42:5-6 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

I used to be ashamed of this story I’m about to share with you….but I don’t care anymore because life is short and if my story can help someone….then I’m going to tell it.

I can remember being depressed and suicidal as a child and then as an adult. I’m not going to get into the dark details about it because then you will get down hearing my sad story. I will tell you that depression is a very dark hole that swallows you up. You cry a lot and feel you are all alone and that there is not one person who understands your internal pain. When you look out from your depressed eyes you see dark, gray, and blackness….nothing is bright…nothing is joyful or happy.

The worse part of depression is the total hopelessness. I tell you…a person cannot live and survive with no hope. You just keep sinking and sinking into a valley of dry bones screaming silently in your dismal pain and internal agony.  Now I’m getting down just describing this very sad place to be in….But I’ve got a great…no… fantastic….  a good ending to this story.

One day when I was at my lowest point in 1982… I knew I wasn’t going to last much longer in this state of mind. I had tried therapy, medication…everything…nothing helped…but I hadn’t tried God.  Someone had given me a Good News bible and I had never read it….but one day I decided to give it a try. I didn’t know what to read so I thumbed through the book of Psalms until I got to Psalms 86:

1 Hear me, LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
2 Guard my life, for I am faithful to you;
save your servant who trusts in you.
You are my God; 3 have mercy on me, Lord,
for I call to you all day long.

4 Bring joy to your servant, Lord,
for I put my trust in you.
5 You, Lord, are forgiving and good,
abounding in love to all who call to you.

6 Hear my prayer, LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.
7 When I am in distress, I call to you,
because you answer me.
8 Among the gods there is none like you, Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.

9 All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.
10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.

11 Teach me your way, LORD,
that I may rely on your faithfulness;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
12 I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.
13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths,
from the realm of the dead.

I read this Psalm and cried over this page in my bible until it was soaked. I asked God to help me. This was the beginning of an amazing transformation. I was always artistic and loved making things. I started making corsages with some silk flowers someone had given me and from there floral arrangements. I bought some how to books from a craft store and did my first wedding and then many more weddings. Then I started doing craft shows……wait a minute…where was the depression? Going going, gone!!! One day I realized that I wasn’t crying, sad or feeling down. It was amazing!! God had healed me of depression and I was happy. I didn’t even know how it felt to be happy every day. What an odd feeling!!

I will never ever forget this awesome miracle God did for me. After this I threw myself at the feet of Jesus Christ who made all this possible for me and I have never left His feet since. I will bow before the Lord all the days of my life.

If you need a healing from depression miracle God may not answer you the exact way He answered my prayer otherwise everybody would be making floral arrangements LOL……but the Lord will help you if you call out to Him. He will help you in a way that’s best for you. It might be instantaneously or over a period of time.

If you are reading this and have a very serious situation please seek medical help right away.

If you suffer from depression seek help and get a plan for yourself….Ask Jesus to help you and follow His lead. I suggest you talk to a pastor for spiritual counseling on this matter. Look for a good solid bible believing church and go. There is a way out of your suffering… for me…..it was the faith that I was raised up with as a child that caused me to look to the only person in the world that could help me…..Jesus Christ!

Do what David says in the scripture above…. “Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.”
It wasn’t by chance you can across this blog today…….I want to pray for you:

“Dear God,
I’m asking you to help everyone who reads this blog today who is suffering from depression. Lord I know what you have done for me and I know you can heal people from this very sad and painful mental illness. You said in 1 Peter 5:7 that we should cast all our care on you because you care about us. I pray that the person reading along with this prayer has made Jesus Christ a apart of their life and that they will put their hope in you. Thank you for the miracles that I know you will do. In Jesus Name…Amen”

 

You Can Be Happy

Message for today: There is hope for depression….get a tissue…blow your nose…wipe your face…. Pray….ask for the Lord’s help……..dust off that bible or go buy one……get moving….Help is on the way……..I care about you…that’s why I wrote this blog because I know what you’re feeling….but so much more than me….God cares about you!