2 Corinthians 12:10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Brokenness in the Lord is being humble before God. The purpose of brokenness is for God to make us fit for His use and service. He will continue to remold us and remake us over our life time.
I know there is so much more that can be added to my explanation but I hope through my own experience that I share will bring understanding to this very important element in our relationship with the Lord.
My blog from Sunday November 13th was from the brokenness of my heart before the Lord. After I sang the song in church I sat down in my seat and our pastor preached his sermon. For the first 10 minutes of the sermon, the tears just fell from my eyes as I was overwhelmed from the love I felt from the Lord when I sang. I was so affected by my own testimony and song that even in watching the video after posting it I could barely stop crying. Why?…because I’m so broken before the Lord. How did I get this way?
I got there this way:
I’ve been ill most of my life and suffered from depression from childhood to my 30’s (I’m 59 now and have had peace of mind for 29 years). I was physically abused by my first husband, and lived in fear for my life and my Childs life. Remarried and 4 of my children were in intensive care at birth. I have a son who has cerebral palsy. I’ve been homeless, poor, been without the comforts of life many times. I’ve had many surgeries and cancer. I’ve been in some of the most physical pain a person can have. I’ve been teased, talked about and belittled. Recently diagnosed with a rare incurable disorder.
Paul got there this way:
2 Corinthians 11:24-27 Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. 25 Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was pelted with stones, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, 26 I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my fellow Jews, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false believers. 27 I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked.
These scriptures are also how I stay broken before the Lord:
James 4:10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Psalms 96:9 Worship the LORD in the splendor of his holiness; tremble before him, all the earth.
Psalms 37:5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:
Hebrews 10:22 let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.
Psalms 51:7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Psalms 119:11 I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
1 Thessalonians 5:17 pray without ceasing;
Isaiah 44:24 “This is what the LORD says–your Redeemer, who formed you in the womb: I am the LORD, who has made all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself,
To summarize these scriptures:
1. I must humble myself before my Heavenly Father.
2. I must worship the Lord and have great respect for His authority.
3. I need to commit myself to Him fully.
4. I need to be true and sincere in my heart before Him.
5. I need to be spiritual clean before Him. Confess any sins and ask Jesus to wash me.
6. I need to study and know your word.
7. I need to talk with my God all the time.
8. I need to know my God and keep this knowledge and our relationship before me at all times.
God has used the trials in my life not to break me in half or to kill me…He loves me…He’s not out to destroy me. But He has used the difficulties to bring me to a point of my total dependence on Him and to have total authority over my life .
I want to be broken before Him and this is how I do it:
I bow my head and say….I’m sorry for my sin Lord…wash me!!! ….I extend my arms out and I say ….I love you Lord!!!… And then I get on the floor with my face to the ground and I cry out….I need you Lord!!! And in my brokenness….I crouch up on my knees and bend down before His Holiness and worship Him.
Remember my blog on “Can crying be good? Tears in a bottle?” Well much of my bottle is filled with tears from my brokenness before the Lord…and He has saved them.
The rewards of my brokenness before the Lord are barely able to be written in this blog…because what I get back is what I experienced when I sang my song last Sunday. There are no words…Just God inside of me….God inside of me.
I wish I could say that I’m always in this same place with the Lord. There is a battle to stay in this place…but I find that the more mature I get as a Christian (because of so many lessons, prayer and bible study)….I have the knowledge on how to get back to that place and when I do get back there…. I’m staying there for longer periods of a time…thank God!.
If you want to experience the power of God in your life…start the process of humbling yourself…or if you are doing it, continue even more. Expect to see the power of God move in your life. Expect God’s presence to be all over you. Taste and see that the Lord is…so so good. Oh praise the name of the Lord!
Message for today: Brokenness is a humbling situation!