My daughter was born DEAD!!!!

February 16, 2012

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Oh Lord save my baby!!!!!

Mark 5: 35,36,39,41,42 

 While Jesus was still speaking, some people came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue leader. “Your daughter is dead,” Jesus told him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.” He went in and said to them, “Why all this commotion and wailing? The child is not dead but asleep.”  “Little girl, I say to you, get up!”  Immediately the girl stood up….

This is a true bible story about a little girl in the bible….but I’m about to tell you my true story about my little girl raised from death.

I was in the delivery room about to give birth to my third child April… on April 14, 1978.  It was a happy time because I loved children and was so ready to meet my new child.  I laid on that delivery room table in full labor… and after all that pushing my child was born….dead!!!!

I waited to hear that cry as I had before giving birth and …..No cry!  No signs of life in her little body! As I asked what was going on…why was my baby not crying…they held me down and nurses stood on the side of me so I couldn’t see all the commotion going on around the table that they were trying to revive her on.  I prayed…”oh Lord please save my baby!!”.   It seem like hours…but it was about 5 minutes before I saw a relief from the staff as they all had been very tense.  The nurse finally told me everything was alright and they let me turn my head to look towards my…daughter. 

Before they took her to intensive care they let me see her.  They were so happy to show her to me….but when I saw her I was SHOCKED because she was blue.  I’d never seen a blue baby before.  After a few weeks in the hospital…my beautiful baby came home and this ended happily ever after because she has grown up to be a very wonderful woman.  Another gift to me from God…I have 6 gifts…6 children…whose lives were spared in a miraculous way.  I shared about my son Noah and I have more stories to share in the future.

 

The girl in the middle is April

April today...all grown up

I said all of this to make this point today.  I was born dead and you were born dead too. Ephesians 2:5 that even though we were dead because of our sins, he gave us life when he raised Christ from the dead. (It is only by God’s grace that you have been saved!)

Why were we dead? Romans 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

How was this problem fixed? Romans 5:10  For if, when we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!

Who fixed this problem? Jesus Christ God’s own Son.  2 Corinthians 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

This should make you want to get up and do a back flip today!!  Because of Jesus Christ we are no longer dead in our spirit man because of mans original sin bought on by Adam and Eve.  Jesus sacrificed His own life and bore all of the sin of mankind so that we may be put right with God. My soul is right with God.  This is why it is well with my soul.

I’m so thankful for my new life…that I have been born again.  This is why I have such peace in the midst of it all.  This is why I have so much hope and so much joy!!  I was an enemy of God because of my sin…but I am now a friend of God…in fact…I’ve been adopted into His family…in fact…He is now my Father and I’m His daughter!!!  Go figure that!…I’m God’s child!!!  I’m alive and well!!!

Message for today: I was dead but I repented of my sins, believed in the Lord Jesus Christ and confessed Jesus as my Lord and Savior and now…….

I’M ALIVE…..   I AM…ALIVE!!

Valentine’s Prayer…God is Love

February 14, 2012

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1 John 4:8  Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

Today is Valentine’s Day and the name Valentine goes back to 269AD when two Christians named  Valentine from Terni and Rome were martyred.   February 14th was the day chosen to honor them.    But it wasn’t until the 14th century when a few poets from England wrote about love and a bird’s time for finding a mate in England… that is when this holiday really began to take shape.

Whatever the true reason is for this holiday celebration…I believe it’s a great one because the greatest fact about the nature of God our Father is that……GOD IS LOVE!  John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

So… today as we think of those we love in a special way…let’s consider the beginning of love…”GOD“.

Dearest heavenly Father,

I want to thank you for the precious gift of love that you have given to the world and to me.  Thank you for blessing me with this love and the strength that I get from you every single day.  Without your love for me I can’t be….I can’t function….I can’t even breathe…because I NEED your love to sustain me.  It’s like food and medicine for my soul Lord.

 Please continue to let me feel your comforting love in my life and Lord I give myself over to you to perfect in me this gift of love…that I may be able to express it and share it with others.  Lord…I have not always been good at this…forgive me.  Father God…some people are harder to love than others…but I want to be like your Son Jesus…so please continue the work you are doing in my life so that my heart will be like yours. In Jesus name I pray.

 God I love you so much and Father……… Happy Valentine’s day!  From me your child. XOXO

1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us.

Message for today: Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love!

Video of my solo in church yesterday

February 13, 2012

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Yesterday I sang for my church’s family and friends day.  We had a lot of visitors and I thank God for my pastor who allows me to minister, give my testimony and sing every month.

This video goes along with my blog last week…It is well with my soul but not with my body.

Gods gifts…A voice…And Whitney Houston

February 12, 2012

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As a singer who has sung some of Whitney Houston’s gospel music….I’m saddened this morning of not only her loss…but also that her gift is silent forever. Whitney was raised up in church and I’m sure that as God has promised in His word that nothing will separate us from His love….she is safe in His arms.

Many people are bringing up her mistakes and I thought of this scripture that Paul said…1 Corinthians 4:3 I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. 

I just want to say that it’s amazing…the gifts of talent and skill that some people have and Whitney’s voice was just that…an amazing gift.

This morning is my Sunday to sing a solo in church and while I’m no Whitney Houston…I’ll use my gift to sing….It is well with my soul.  Many of you know I wrote a blog about that last week.  Whitney Huston tried hard to regain a well soul and it’s something that can be difficult for all of us at one time or another. David in the Psalms asked God to help him with this…

Psalm 51:10-12  Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

How can it be well with your soul?

  1. Put God first.
  2. Talk to Him all day every day.
  3. Study and know your bible.
  4. Ask Jesus to wash you clean…to forgive your sins.
  5. Trust Him for everything.

Message for today:  Let’s keep Whitney’s daughter and family in prayer.  Today let’s make sure all is well with our soul and pray for those who are struggling with their’s.

Message from the Lord 4 today

February 10, 2012

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God speaks I listen and share:

I feel to share that the Lord is saying….this is still early in the New Year and all throughout this year will be relief for many…there’s something the saints need to do.  Put God ahead of everything.  It’s God and stuff.  God and you…God and your family…God and your job….God and your money…God and ________.  Don’t leave God out of anything you do.  Consult Him…seek His face and seek His will.  This is the year 2012 for….God and you.  This is a year 2012 for you to keep your eyes on the Lord and be sensitive for the leading of the Holy Spirit who is your help, guide and instructor.  This is the year 2012 for you to cast all your care on the Lord.  This is your year of….relief!!!  Know God’s word and know God’s will….for your life.  Wait on Him!  Don’t go ahead of the Lord but wait on Him.

Mathew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.(KJV)

Mathew 6:33 But first be concerned about God’s kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things will be provided for you as well.(ISV)

1Peter 5:7  Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.(KJV)

Psalms 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

 

TAKE CARE OF GOD’S BUSINESS…AND HE’LL TAKE CARE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!

The man in the middle

February 7, 2012

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John 19:16-  Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified. So the soldiers took charge of Jesus. 17 Carrying his own cross, he went out to the place of the Skull (which in Aramaic is called Golgotha). 18 There they crucified him, and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle.

Hello there….My name is Barabbas AKA Jesus Barabbas… JB for short.  All my life I have been trouble.  My mother said she wish I would shut my mouth sometimes because I always had something to say and was always starting trouble.  My sisters and brothers were sick of me because I was the boss over them even though I was not the oldest.  I had to have my way…in fact it was my way or no way.  I left home in my early teens because I thought I knew it all and I also bought a lot of shame to my family because I was a thief.  I joined this gang of men who were talking a lot about taking over things and their ideals appealed to my young impressionable mine… so I did whatever I had to do for the cause even if it meant stealing and with that…it lead to other evil acts…and yes…I even committed murder!

Barabbas was a thief and a murderer

I thought I was done for when I got caught and they threw me into prison.  If fact…I was going to be killed…crucified as they called it.  That’s what they did to criminals like me.  While I was in prison…I heard about a man named Jesus.  They say He was a king of some sought…there were even claims that he was the Son of God.  Go figure that!  Who would be that crazy to make a claim like that?  So like…I’m sitting here in this nasty rat infested prison waiting to d-i-e….and I hear my name being shouted in the streets.  I’m thinking….”these folks really want me dead!”  Next thing I know…the guards are coming to my cell and they open the door and tell me I’m free…”go…get out of here”!  So I left and returned to my gang.

I was curious as to why I was let out…so I nosied around and found  out that there was a man named Jesus who I heard rumors about when I was in jail who was going to be crucified in my place.  They say He didn’t really commit any real crimes.  He was beaten and tortured and they were going to release Him… but the people shouted for my freedom and instead of letting this guy go….they released me!  Hey…lucky for me I thought to myself.

It was about the 6th hour of the day….I went to the place that is a known area where they crucified people and I asked around in the crowd… “Where is this Jesus who is being crucified today?”  Someone pointed and said to me….”see those three crosses over…it’s the man in the middle”’

So I went over there and saw a few people by the cross who looked so sad.  There was some women crying and they seemed to be so heartbroken.  As I looked up at those men on the wooden crosses… I looked at the man in the middle and I said to myself…: that should’ve been me”  He didn’t rob anybody…he didn’t kill anybody…it should have been me!!  This man called out to His Father in such anguish.  The look on His face…I will never forget!  He spoke to some people who were near the foot of the cross and also spoke to one of the men being crucified beside Him.  The look on this mans face seemed to be relief and then peace.

 

Then the man in the middle mumbled some words and died.  Right after this some incredible things started happening.  I was so scared that I ran.  On my way home I saw people who had died walking the streets…oh my goodness!!…scary stuff!!…..nothing was wrong with them!!!  There were other shocking stories of other things that happened that day.  Then the most shocking of all…about three days later…there were rumors that this man in the middle was alive again…walking the streets in fact!!!  What in the world is going on here?!!!!!!

I began to ponder all of these events and I pondered about my life and how it was spared.  My heart was so broken over all the evil acts I committed and I felt such conviction in my heart.  I felt something I never felt before…guilt.  I left my gang and sought out some of these followers of the man in the middle.  They called themselves…disciples.  My life is really changed now…I finally have peace…I feel like a new person with this man in the middle in my life….I’ve even reconnected with my family…and I owe this all to….the man in the middle….Jesus Christ…the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.

In His presence,

Barabbas

Luke 23: 18-25  But the whole crowd shouted, “Away with this man! Release Barabbas to us!” 19 (Barabbas had been thrown into prison for an insurrection in the city, and for murder.)

20 Wanting to release Jesus, Pilate appealed to them again. 21 But they kept shouting, “Crucify him! Crucify him!”

22 For the third time he spoke to them: “Why? What crime has this man committed? I have found in him no grounds for the death penalty. Therefore I will have him punished and then release him.”

23 But with loud shouts they insistently demanded that he be crucified, and their shouts prevailed. 24 So Pilate decided to grant their demand. 25 He released the man who had been thrown into prison for insurrection and murder, the one they asked for, and surrendered Jesus to their will.

Message for today: The man in the middle saved my life and I’m so grateful for all that Jesus did for me on the cross.  May everyone get to know….the man in the middle!!!!!!!!!!

Jesus died in place of Barabbas... for me and you....John 3:16...Thank you so much JESUS!!!

Super bowl Sunday 2012… What team will God help win?

February 5, 2012

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1 Corinthians 9:25-27  Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26 Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. 27 No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

1 Timothy 4:8 For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.

 

Today is Sunday…the day we honor the Lord at our places of worship.   But today is also…Super bowl Sunday.  I live in New York so of course this is a big event for all New Yorkers…but me.  Am I really into football?…nah!  Is my husband into it?…1,000% .

Is God into sports football?  Well I don’t know for sure…I think in recent events with Tim Tebow… it may have sparked an interest…LOL!  As noted in the above scriptures verses…sports has been around for a long time…that’s the way men are wired…competition driven!

So the big question…Which side is God rooting for?  I’m sure there are Christians on both sides.  I asked God this morning and I feel He said to me that sometimes things have to just take their natural course.  That makes sense to me.  Sometime we want to blame things on the devil…but many times things just happen.  I believe this game will just have to happen.  Yes…there will be many prayers going up to God for the game on both sides….maybe God should see which side has the least sinners?  Or maybe which side prays the loudest or the most sincere.  Nope!  It’s just going to be who was the most skilled on February 5, 2012!  That’s it folks!  So sit back and enjoy the game and get your “holla” on!

Like these mighty athletes…we too have been in training for a prize. This training helps us in this life and in the next.   When we complete our task and purpose for the Lord He will reward us with an eternal life with Him and all the rewards…crowns of life… for our work that we trained to do for Him.  Praise the Lord…Thank you Jesus!  May the Holy Spirit continue to guide you in your instruction and training for God.

Message for today: Have a great day and Go Giants and Patriots!  God bless you both!  May the best man win!

Barbeque and the Scriptures

February 4, 2012

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1 Corinthians 10:31  So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.                                                        ( or barbecue…my passion 🙂 )

2 Timothy 2:15  Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. (Studying the bible is like spiritual BBQ-ing)

Today I’m going to BBQ for my husband and dad for tomorrows Superbowl dinner.  Being from New York you can see how important this is for my men folk!

I want to share something about myself….I LOVE TO BARBEQUE!!!!!  Ask my family…it’s my total passion.  I make my own rubs and sauces and love to cook in my smoker pit.  It takes me hours to make my special sauces.  I make different flavors such as my stick to your fingers BBQ sauce, mustard BBQ sauce, raspberry sauce, garlic sauce and on and on.  It takes a day to make up my different meat rubs.  I have one for chicken, ribs and seafood.  When I BBQ or smoke meat… there is a certain taste that I’m looking for.  It’s got to be just right or I won’t be satisfied and will do it again until I get it just right.  I can’t even eat other people’s BBQ because… if it’s too tough or not seasoned just right… I can’t get into it. My 6 adult children and husband said they compare other BBQ to mine also.  I spoiled them!

So you might say at this point…what in Pete’s name does this have to do with bible scriptures?

Well my husband has a passion for God’s word like I have for barbecuing.  He has his different rubs which are his NIV bible and his 365 days through the bible.  He uses different sauces such as the Strongs, the Naves, certain commentaries and other bible study tools. My husband’s passion for  word of God is something to behold.  He goes over God’s word like I watch over my slow cooking meat.  When I smell that smoke I know that meat is going to taste good.  When my husband goes over God’s word he knows that word in him is going to produce a good thing…not only in him but with whoever he shares that word with.  He is a minister so knowing God’s word is a very good thing.  My husband’s passion for God’s word has helped me so much with my Christian walk and I’m so grateful that I’m married to a great scripture barbecuer…this man can cook….I mean…rightly divide the word of God.

What’s your passion?  Mine is my family and BBQ-ing ….But my main passion is bible study,  prayer,  serving and worshiping my God.   We should all be very passionate about the word of God!!  Gotta go now and get cookin’…I mean studying the scriptures…now that’s some real…BBQ-ing!!

Message for today: Let’s all be passionate about what?……Studying God’s word.

My body may not well… but my spirit is

February 2, 2012

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2 Corinthians 4:16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

As many of you may or may not know… I suffer with a chronic illness and this summer I asked for prayer form everyone when I went to a specialist who could possibly diagnose me.  Well he did diagnose me with a rare disorder called Periodic Paralysis.  I get episodes of extreme weakness and many times it feels like I’m having a stroke because my right side gets very weak.  I have difficulty breathing and heart irregularities.  When these attacks stop…I’m left with weakness, speech and memory problems that can last from a few hours to days.

I get these every morning around 11am but most days they are very mild and if I get the big debilitating episodes they can last on and off for a week or more.  Any physical activity brings these on as well as many other things can trigger these off so I never know how my next hour or day is going to be.  I’ve had symptoms of this illness as long as I can remember and over the years it has manifested in different ways.

The specialist I went to see gave me medication for it this summer and over these months I’ve tried different ones because the medications made me very sick.  So recently I’ve tried to control the symptoms with dietary changes and It’s not going to well and right now I’m even weaker.

This week I’ve come to realize that this is my life.  After spending most of my life trying to find out what I have… just to find out that it’s something that I  will have to deal with for the long haul …was a lot to take in….but…I tell you….the peace of God has flooded my soul and today I have peace.  Why?  Because my God has never left me in all of this and never will.  Why?  Because nothing will EVER separate me from His love and care.  Why? Because I know I can cast all my care on Him because He cares for me. Why? Because He is the good shepherd and He takes care of me.

So I tell you today…don’t feel sorry for me… because it is so well with my soul.  I know I belong to God….I know He is there for me….I know that EVERY morning God has promised me new mercies and I look for it and I get it.  It is well with my soul because… my eyes are fixed on the Lord.  Jesus name is on my lips and in my heart.  I know that when I am weak my God is strong in me.  I praise God in my storms and He surrounds me with His presence.  I have survived for 59 years with this and I will endure the rest of my life… safe in my Father’s arms.

When you have Jesus Christ in your life….you have everything you need for your life and as long as you have your eyes on Him…as long as you trust Him…you will be good.  But the great part about Jesus is that even if you are so weak and tired and you may even doubt a little….HE WILL NEVER LET YOU GO!!!  That’s how powerful His love is for us.

When my kids were little…I was like a mother grizzly bear.  If anyone tried to harm my kids I stood up on my hind legs and protected my 6 kids.  If they were sick…I was all over that thing in deed and prayer.  I used everything in my power to make sure my kids had everything they needed to make it.  But…If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!(Mathew 7:11)  Need I say more?

I don’t know what my future holds…but I know who holds my future and I PUT MYSELF IN HIS HANDS!

I leave you with these scriptures:

2 Corinthians 4:16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

Isaiah 49:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Psalms 76:26 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalms 23:4 Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. (NLT)

Psalms 54:4 Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.

Psalms 18:2  The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

Message for today: No matter what happens to my body…it has nothing to do with my soul and my relationship with the Lord. My trust is in the Lord and it is truly well with my soul!!!!

You are under surveillance!

January 31, 2012

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Gods eye’s are everywhere

Proverbs 15:3  The eyes of the LORD are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good.

Job 34:21 “His eyes are on the ways of men; he sees their every step.

There is a song I was going to write about made popular by Bette Midler in 1990 called….From a distance.  The words are: God is watching us ,God is watching us, God is watching us, From a distance.

Now the writer of this song was not taking about our God whose Son is Jesus…but anybody’s God is watching us…so this song can’t work for me…but I can say that my bible says….God’s eyes are everywhere and He is watching us.

I think some people think God takes long naps or He went to visit another galaxy to check on some of His other creations and forgot about us…but I tell  you… the bible is truth…God is not a man that He would lie to us and He says in His word that He sees all…good and evil…He sees every single thing that goes on down here on earth.  God know what every person had for breakfast today.  He knows what’s in everybody’s top draw….yeah some us have got some weird stuff in that top draw.  Every evil thing that’s being done right now…He knows.  Evil people aren’t getting away with anything.  They are not pulling the wool over Gods eyes.

We are under surveillance !

God is not spying on us either.  His looking eyes are motivated by LOVE for us and He is Holy… so there can ONLY be goodness when He is looking at us and after us. God is not sitting around with Jesus,  the Holy Spirit,  some of His angels and the cloud of witnesses watching us like they’re watching a football game saying….wow…look at Tanya sweating this one out…let’s see what will happen if we let this happen to her….oh no…she bombed out…to bad…let’s try this next.

God watches over us…His children… like the very protective Father that He is and He is saving His judgment for the evil deeds from the other people for that day when all that He’s seen them do will be dealt with.

So pray and talk to God with the confidence that He knows what is going on with you. Know what the bible says He will do for you and be bold and ask Him for what you need.  If you have sudden trouble…He knows all about it because His eyes are everywhere so call on Him right away.

Should we be concerned about everything we do as a child of God…yup!…But God is careful not to let us feel like a fish in a bowl.  He gives us certain privacy that’s why people do bad things without feeling really bad.  We should remember God is watching 24/7…but..do we?

Message for today:  God has His eye on you….whatcha doin’?

These days we are being watch all the time, at the mall, on the job, just everywhere! God is watching us too.

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