I am very thankful for what Jesus did for me and for you by sacrificing His life! This Easter is even more precious to me than ever!!! I have been going through a lot with my health more than usual. I’ve been needing a way to express this, so this is my now second poem.
A Life Involving Sickness By Tanya Nemley
I’ve suffered with sickness for more than 70 years of my life! Oy vey!
Never knew what it was but finally getting answers thank God!
God told me to never be ashamed of my life no matter what my course.
Even though I’ve had so much stress, I’ve been truly blessed!
My parents had me thinking I would be normal but…..
They struggled with my medical issues that came on me like pouring rain. Some days it felt like a hurricane. Oy vey!
Life descended on me, and I was drowning in it. As I tried to dog paddle to keep afloat, God kept sending me out life preservers. Time after time I needed to be rescued. Lord have mercy!
My crying has been at full throttle, but God is the keeper of tears in a bottle. In fact, He has a room filled with mine. I add to my collection almost daily! Oy vey!
One day God sent a message to me via a church ministry. Yes, He came a lookin’ for me. I did experience some real-life miracles! Oh, what a relief that was. Lord had mercy!
One day I became a committed Christian. Not with my lips but with my heart. I said to God, “Thank you for this gift of happiness you blessed me with. I am your servant! I work for you now!” Lord have mercy!
I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free. I was blind but now I see! Reminds you of a couple of songs, huh?
But my troubles were far from over. Oy vey!
Cancer soon followed. Along with many extreme medical trials. Ambulance rides, ER’s, hospitalizations oh my!!!
Trials and tribulations were plentiful! Lord have mercy!
“God, you have a plan for my life right?, But this can’t be it”, I said to Him underneath my breath. Hoping my smart remark did not result in my death!
Even Jesus never said a mumbling word, but I did not take after Jesus’ personality with this one! Oy vey!
Suffering is not my thing. Pain is not my thing. A trial is not my thing. I did make a promise to myself for prayer to be my thing. Lord, please have mercy!
I Conversate frequently with God these days. I need to! I must! Life can get very intense at times! Tears are included in these frequent exchanges. Oy vey!
Quite often God says to me, “be still, be still, be still my child”. He tells me His thoughts are superior to mine. Sometimes He whispers to me, “I got you!”. Lord have mercy!
I think of how Jesus responded to His suffering. “Father, If there be another way” He prayed. I sometimes want to say that, but I come to my senses when I ponder about His sovereignty. Oy vey!
I try to be like Jesus, when He flung Himself on the ground and cried out to God, “not my will but Your will”. For me though, I fling myself on my bed and with a heart filled with dread I cry and say, Lord have mercy on me!
It’s a good thing God is slow to anger. Otherwise, I would surely get on His last nerve. But Jesus paid a price for my life which is far more than I deserve!
The Holy Spirit also reminds me that I’m more than a sparrow and He helps me to stay on the straight and narrow.
Then the Holy Spirit reminds me of this song, “Because He lives, I can face tomorrow”. I know there is a day a comin’ when I will face no more sorrow!
All I can say is…. “Thank you, Jesus”!!!
Happy Resurrection Day everyone!!!!
P.S. One day soon “oy vey”! and “Lord have mercy”! will be wiped from my vocabulary!!!
(I wrote a book called “A Handbook for surviving suffering.”)
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